I've worked it out.

It's not that I'm not going to Grafton;
I can't go to Grafton.

Why?

Well basically:

• I complained all the time about my dad not being at home, and then Richard not being at home. Well, it would just be me doing the same thing (albeit with slightly cleaner intentions, self improvement and all that other junk)

• $8000 dollars is not something I am willing to just throw around.

• My sister needs someone to tell her to do her homework. William is too busy working. Richard is, well, I don't have to tell you.

So although it was a good idea and it gets me excited just like Ewan McGregor, I cannot go without being a hypocrite, and ridiculously selfish.

Time to email!