Wednesday, January 31, 2007

The Eye; watched.

There is a remake being made omg lol

it was okay movie, like its not too scary and it suffers form the honkoneze problem of overdone emotional music cues but apart from that,,,,, i dunno lol its alright was worth the watch

A Clockwork Orange is brillant.


drove big circle through east tamaki to get to sylvia park rooofl i looked on the map when i got home and it was like oh daym lol nexx time go thru plz pakarana tx

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

FINALLY bought the Nervous Wreck single!! $4.20 (not $5 cause like Warehouse had a 10% music sale yay!! good timing)

I have a supermassive pimple. I don't usally get them but when I do they are usually very obvious and commercial-style. so yeah lol its a solid base and it feels yuck and painful like a callous but NOT so yeah i used a bit of my sisters cleanser stuff and like omg lol it worked kinda still there but it feels clenaernenrner CLEAN & CLEAR & UNDER KONTROL


the service people said they couldn't get the noise out of the car maybe i should have mentioned it happens when turning but yeah i dunno lol i drove it around today and i got that sound and iwas like omg you guys dizent try hard?! it cost like 400 bucks


i lost my card for the mumfund :L* have to get new one from ASBank


So like, rented guitar hero II yeah? So like yeah how is it compared to guitar freaks? It's a MUCH more authentic guitar experience. guitar hero has like 5 buttons thats almost double guitar freaks' and also in guitar hero its more authentic lower notes dont bother higher notes and you can do hammer ons and pull offs YAY ok yeah its just that guitar freaks has more varied broad broad genres but like guitar hero is really about ROCK ok so yeah but it does have some nice like stuff like youkno blues/jazz kinda stuff but not enough!!! okbye
This is the 1331th post!



oikjay so today in the mail i got a statement of account thing right

for like

the tax year and stuff

like i owed them money

so obviously when i mailed them the personal tax summary crap it hasn't reached them yet

anyway WHATEVER i called them and stuff so like now its all sorted, the rebate has been applied and OH YEAH i get money back woo so i can ignore this Statement of Accounts that has caused me to go "whoamg shoxxxx!!!" but yeha lol itz kool cause like now i can not worry about owed money and actually get my entittymen back okay bye!!!
lol @ calling your band Dangerous Muse. Don't you idiots realise there's a band called Muse already? That's like calling yourself Dangerous Metallica. Duh...

So yeah i woke up at like 8 this morn

and like

drove to east tamaki to get the chariot serviccccc'd. its scary driving without know'n where you're go'n.

but loan car: you know the mitsubishi colt

the one in the soccer ads

that kicks that ball around

well yeha, they gave me that as the loan car and man lol i believe the ad, it can turn like a beast

it also looks like an ugly beast. very ugly lol but it drives smooth. too smooth. power steerin' iz like fo'shiz POWAH.

and driving BACK from manukau mitsubishi was a bit of a challenge , didnt know where i wuz goin and there was roadworks and also like, I couldn't figure out how to adjust the seat so its real dangerous like when you gots to stretchy your feety to reachy the xcelerata y'know? but i did eventually and its all good but it turns too well and arrrr touchy but its easy to drive you know so yeah that's my experience with the colt, im also not used to its mirrors and its weird size, my spatial sense is tingling but only for the chariot this paragraph is long and unending for something most people wont care about because honestly who is going to buy a colt? but i think its a little bit like the spacio? that dennis drives around, like, it looks hideous on the outside (no offense) but its a decent car so looks arent everything ok and stupid ads aren't everything either so like even though the ad is dumb and it has a dumb jingle and everything its still an alright car so dont go hurtin' itz feelings OK BYE

Saturday, January 27, 2007

So like, I'm woken up at 6.30am by William and Kim leaving for a long weekend trip~

Actually, that's not quite true, it's probably cause I also woke up at 6.30 yesterday so my body thinkz I need to wake up again or some crap

stupid stupid stupid :P

Anyway, the microwave wasn't working and I was facing the prospect of a weekend of cooking for one without a microwave (omg no instant meals) but then I reset the multiboard and it was all good.


Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

And hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

I just wanted to hold

Friday, January 26, 2007

Work today. Tired but moneyismoney.

Annoying indignant argumentative fat kid should be quiet and sit in corner.

:( @ random asian swearing from white people


I'm like 2/3 through my motorcycle road code

lots of handy riding hints in it.

ive forgotten some stuff alreayd from my basic skills and handling though ><

like, do i have to catch the clutch every time i'm coming to a stop? is this the same for a manual car? SOMEONE HELP

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Why put honey out in the sun when you can put it in your pantry?


Had a great time tonight thx sonny, great food from everyone, yay @ mafia lol wooodogs

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

A brand new Suzuki GN250 (which I did the basic handling and skills on) costs $3,300.

now just need to study the road code...

Monday, January 22, 2007

Thanks Raymond.


Okay, so I used to be a fan of Muse. But now that I've heard Absolution and Black Holes and Revelations, I'm a Supermassive fan of Muse. It's like the perfect blend of electronic, rock and progressive stuff. I can't...well, it's not so much as in it's indescribable but there is just so much that is good about it, i'd need days to finish.

Only workin Friday this week yay!

Saturday, January 20, 2007

/Big Day out

big money spend

i saw

North Shore Pony Club
Goodnight Nurse (omg watched them play Milkshake WOO)
My Chemical Romance (couldnt hear them that well cause of all the people, high frequencies die)
Lily Allen WINNER of the day, best act. She is funny and cute and omgomg we got her autograph also and like omg lol she played her sobngs with real people lol so like saxophones and shit it was amazing and she did all the good songs on her album and i was moved to tears by Littlest things lol omg lol never happenbefore
then a bit of dj justice

boiler room is aptly named it is friggin hot in there

then the killers, we were on the stands but not as good so we just didnt get view but joined crowd

then MUSE who are brilliant lol matt bellamy with his guitar and effects lol wtf

i didnt realise they were so dancey before

and like muse lol the moshing is like ow

toes toes toes

after that we skipped tool (no thx) and caught the end of The Streets, that was cool, then Crystal Method and then Shapeshifter

great day because of the music

organisers suck though

took me 1hr to get money from eftpos

i want to hit them

they are allowed to run out of money once but surely they would have worked it out for the second time

food and drink REALLY expsnsiveve in there, drink especially. like, 2x price gouging.



my calves are sore from jump;ing lol

Thursday, January 18, 2007

so i was just using my laptop today

and like, i tried to close the screen

and it started falling apart lol

and i try to mash it back together like i usually do

but it wont

im amazed the monitor still works

i need a new laptop

or at least a new case for it


big day out tomorrow

112 dollars


laptops are expensive



:( hate is a strong word but i really really really don't like you
A Perfect Circle
A Perfect Circle

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Long ago
Just like the hearse you died to get in again
We are...
So far from you

Burning on, just like the match you strike to incinerate...
The lives
Of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take?
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stake
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are,
The very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take?
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stake
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Do we deserve, to leave the earth
we'll meet again
When both our hearts collide

Monday, January 15, 2007

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
All the play fighting
All the flirtatious disses
I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We’d spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
[ these lyrics found on ]
Is this the end?

Drinkin’ tea in bed, watchin’ DVD’s
When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines
You’d take me out shopping
And all we’d buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could that tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you’d make that face you do
There’s no-one in the world who could replace you

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?
Dawn of the Dead is a *great* movie lol

Seriously, like, best serious zombie movie (best non serious one would be shawn of the dead lol)


went swimming @ beach for first time in ages. water tastes really bad but it was fun


WHY HAVE I NOT BEEN PAID MY $100 bond back from Video EZY YET?!

Sunday, January 14, 2007


Ok. So I didn't win and you wuz all like "i was hopin you didnt win" well i couldnt have anyway cause nobody was gonna pull her out lol and <.< you is thinkin itz the spannar?!


Lily Allen album: AESOME. AEEESOME.

Alright so this is a song about anyone, it could be anyone.
You're just doing your own thing and some one comes out the blue,
They're like,
He's saying,
"Yeah can I take your digits?"
And you're like, "no not in a million years, you're nasty
please leave me alone."

Cut to the pub on a lads night out,
Man at the bar cos it was his shout,
Clocks this bird and she looks ok,
Caught him looking and she walks his way,
"alright darlin, you gonna buy us a drink then?"
"err no, but I was thinking of buying one for your friend..."

She's got no taste hand on his waste, tries to pull away but her lips on his face,
"if you insist I'll have a white wine spritzer"
"sorry love, but you ain't a pretty picture."

Can't knock em out, can't walk away,
Try desperately to think of the politest way to say,
Just get out my face, just leave me alone,
And no you cant have me number,
Because I've lost my phone.

Oh yeah, actually yeah I'm pregnant, having a baby in like 6 months so no, and yeah, yeah...

"I recognise this guy..."
That's what she's thinking,
As he comes over her heart starts sinking,
She's like,
"oh here we go.."
It's a routine check that she already knows, she's thinking they're all the same.

"yeah you alright baby? You look alright still, yeah what's your name?"
She looks in her bag, takes out a fag, tries to get away from the guy on a blag, can't find a light,
"use mine"
"you see the thing is I really don't have the time."


Go away now, let me go,
Are you stupid? Or just a little slow?
Go away now I've made myself clear,
Nah it's not gonna happen,
Not in a a million years,

Chorus x2

nah I've gotta go cos my house is on fire,
I've got herpes, err no I've got syphilis...

Saturday, January 13, 2007

So today I've pretty much spent my whole day playing FFXI. (Made like....1 million + gil though, which is like maybe 14 US dollars in real life currency)

And intermittently thorughout the day I was getting phone calls which hung up the instant I picked up.

And then later tonight three in a row. Same number.


With the magic of Caller ID, I call back and tell them to fuck off.

If you're bored anytime these holidays, you have my permission to prank call 09 8386213.

That'll learn you.

Friday, January 12, 2007

Man. It's amazing how tiring a week with kids are.

Urgh. Man. Urh.

Watched Black Knight by Martin Lawrence lol I hate him

This kid spat in my hair

This kid came dressed up as James bond it was SO COOL but i didnt get a photo lol

This kid came as an emo (lol @ David) with eyeshadow and vivid nails

My personal tax summary has arrived. APPARENTLY I OWE THEM TAX :(

but I can apply for child / <9800 rebate




Wednesday, January 10, 2007

lol @ texas chainsaw massacre

not that scary but maybe 30 years ago.

best scene is when the damsel in distress gets beaten up with a broom LOL

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Due to the loss of a number of academic staff from the Department of
Computer Science in 2006 we are unable to offer all of the courses that are
listed in our 2007 handbook. COMPSCI 366 is one of the courses that we have
had to cancel. Due to this cancellation you have been dropped from COMPSCI


Sunday, January 07, 2007


By Richard Harter

The toilet seat problem has been the subject of much controversey. In this paper we consider a simplified model of the toilet seat problem. We shall show that for this model there is an inherent conflict of interest which can be resolved by a equity solution.

Consider a bathroom with one omnipurpose toilet (also known as a WC) which is used for two toilet operations which we shall designate as #1 and #2. The toilet has an attachment which we shall refer to as the seat (but see remark 1 below) which may be in either of two positions which we shall designate as up and down.

Toilet operations are performed by members of the human species (see remark 2 below) who fall into two categories, popularly designated as male and female. For convenience we shall use the name John to refer to the typical male and Marsha to refer to the typical female.

The performance of toilet operations by John and Marsha differ in a number of respects. The costs of these operations are peculiar to the respective sexes and are fixed except with respect to the position of the toilet seat. In particular:

Marsha performs toilet operations #1 and #2 with the seat in the down position. John performs toilet operation #1 with the seat in the up position and toilet operation #2 with the seat in the down position. If the seat is in the wrong position before performing the toilet operation the position must be changed at an average cost C. Optionally the position may be changed after performing the toilet operation, also at an average cost C. (Changing the position of the seat during the performance of a toilet operation is beyond the scope of this note and is definitely not recommended.)

Consider the scenario where John and Marsha each use a separate toilet. It should be obvious to the most casual observer that each minimizes the seat position transfer cost by not altering the seat position after performing a toilet operation.

For Marsha the seat position transfer cost is 0 since all operations are performed with the seat in the down position. For John the cost is greater than 0 since seat position transfers must be performed.

Let p be the probability that John will perform a #1 operation vs a #2 operation. Assume that John optimizes his seat position transfer cost (see remark 3 below.) Then it is easy to determine that John’s average cost of seat position transfer per toilet opeation is

B = 2p(1-p)C

where B is the bachelor cost of toilet seat position transfers per toilet operation.

Now let us consider the scenario where John and Marsha cohabit and both use the same toilet. In our analysis we shall assume that John and Marsha perform toilet operations with the same frequency (see remark 4 below) and that the order in which they perform them is random. They discover to their mutual displeasure that their cohabitation adversely alters the toilet seat position transfer cost function for each of them. What is more there is an inherent conflict of interest. Attempts to resolve the problem typically revolve around two strategies which we shall designate as J and M

Strategy J
Each person retains the default strategy that they used before cohabiting. This strategy is proposed by John with the argument “Why does it matter if the seat is up or down?”. As we see below this strategy benefits John.

Strategy M
Each person leaves the seat down. This strategy is proposed by Marsha with the argument “It ought to be down.” As we see below this strategy benefits Marsha.

Consequences of strategy J:
Under strategy J the toilet seat is is in the up position with probability p/2. The respective average cost of toilet seat transfer operations for John and Marsha are:

John: p(3/2-p)C
Marsha: pC/2

The incremental costs (difference between pre and post habitation costs) are:

John: ( p - 1/2)pC
Marsha: pC/2
Total: (p^2)C

John’s incremental cost would actually be negative if p were less than 1/2. This is not the case; p>1/2. Note that Marsha’s incremental cost is greater than John’s for p<1.>

Consequences of strategy M:
In strategy M the seat is always left down. When John performs operation #1 he lifts the seat before the operation and lowers it after the operation. The respective average cost of toilet seat transfer operations is:

John: 2pC
Marsha: 0

The incremental costs are:

John: 2(p^2)C
Marsha: 0
Total: 2(p^2)C

In these strategy Marsha bears no cost; all of the incremental costs are borne by John. John objects. Note also that the combined incremental cost of strategy M is greater than that of strategy J.

It is notable that John and Marsha each advocates a strategy that benefits them. This is predictable under game theory. However the conflict over strategies has a cost M in marital discord that is greater than the cumulative cost of toilet seat transfers. It behooves John and Marsha, therefore, to adopt a strategy that minimizes M.

This is not simple. A common reaction is to advance sundry arguments to justify adopting strategy M or J. All such arguments are suspect because they are self serving (and often accompanied with the “If you loved me” ploy.) A sound strategy is one that is equitable and is seen to be equitable. In this regard there are three candidate criteria:

(1) Minimize the joint total cost
(2) Equalize the respective total costs
(3) Equalize the respective incremental costs

The argument for (1) is that John and Marsha are now as one and it is the joint costs and benefits of the union that should be considered. This principle is not universally accepted. It is readily seen that (see remark 5) that the joint total cost is optimized by strategy J which has already been seen to be suspect.

Criterion (2) seems plausible. It requires, however, that Marsha put the seat in the up position after performing a toilet operation some percentage of the time. No instance of this behaviour has ever been observed in recorded history; ergo this criterion can be ruled out. (But see remark 6.)

Criterion (3) argues that the mututal increased cost of toilet seat operations should be shared equitably, i.e., neither party should bear a disproportionate share of the costs of cohabitation. A short calculation reveals that criterion (3) can be achieved if John leaves the seat up after performing toilet operation #1 with a frequency

f = (2p-1)/p

Since the value of p is seldom precisely measured and is variable in any event it suffices to use an approximate value of f. If we assume that p=2/3 then f=1/2. This suggests the following convenient rule of thumb:

In the morning John leaves the seat up after performing #1.
In the evening he puts it down.

This rule may not be precise but it is simple and approximately equitable; moreover the use of a definite rule sets expectations. The seat is put down in the evening to avoid the notorious “middle of the night surprise”.

I expect that this analysis should settle the toilet seat controversey for once and for all - if John and Marsha are mathematicians.

* * *

Remark 1: The toilet has an additional attachment called the toilet seat lid which can only be down if the toilet seat is down. When the lid is down the toilet is (or should be) non-functional for toilet operations. Some persons maintain the toilet seat lid in the down position when the toilet is not use. For these persons the analysis in this note is moot. Such persons pay a fixed cost in seat movement for all toilet operations.

Remark 2: Toilets are also used by domestic animals as a convenient source of drinking water unless the lid is down. (See remark 1)

Remark 3: Experimental evidence suggests that almost all bachelors optimize the seat transfer cost, the exception being those who put the seat up after performing a #2 operation.

Remark 4: Folklore has it that Marsha performs more toilet operations than John, hypothetically because of a smaller bladder. John, however, drinks more beer. We shall not discuss his prostate problem.

Remark 5: “Readily seen” in this context means “It looks obvious but I don’t know how to prove it; you figure it out.”

Remark 6: The toilet lid solution is to put the toilet lid down after all toilet operations. This solution imposes a cost of 2C on each party and is accordingly more expensive. It is, however, more esthetic. It also eliminates the “doggy drinking” problem.

Sorry Sonny, domain names cannot start or end with a "-".
Today, watched Brick (which like The Prestige started about a bit confusing but got much better) - not too bad nice twists yay!

And also rented a Wii. So fun lol, Wii play and Wii sports and Call of Duty 3. The controllers are so awesome :o

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Now I know
That I can’t make you stay
But where’s your heart
But where’s your heart
But where’s your...

And I know
There’s nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights that cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A life that’s so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can’t speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiving
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I’m out here
On the other side
Of the jet black
Hotel mirror
And I’m so weak
Well is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay
I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay
I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights are
always blinding me
These bright lights are
always blinding me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak
Awake and unfraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay
I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Friday, January 05, 2007

The Prestige is a brilliant movie. Seriously. Like's a great script and everything GO WATCH

Monday, January 01, 2007

Alright, so I'm much too tired to type a really long year in review. But;

2007. Hi.

Last year I said:

"I don't think any of the years ever are really truly substantially different."

Last year proved me wrong in so many ways. 2006 has been the most different year out of all the ones I've had. I haven't made up my mind whether it's good or bad. Probably bad. A lot of crap happened in 2006, but if it had turned out any other way, I'm not sure it would have been for the better. But I still really miss her, every day.

Last year I said:

"Have you seen dead people? They are not particularly interesting."

Last year, I saw a dead person. It changes your life whether you're ready for it or not. Especially if you knew the person.

Last year, I said:

"Your boss is a bastard, or he just seems that way. Who knows?"

And then near the end of last year, boss changed. The person in charge is now a woman.

My brother is still a bartender. And, I still play FFXI. It's like a constant. But in the last couple of weeks, I've had real life. Real people. Reality. (sans internet)

Last year, I said:

"You start to drive, even though on the inside it seems like you are clashing with your lifelong ambition to ride a two-wheeled mechanical device. You learn how to turn. You know how the accelerator works now (it's pretty fickle)."

And then last year, I got my Basic Skills and Handling certificate. So I'm one step further along with my lifelong ambition. If I thought accelerators in cars were bad...throttles on bikes are about 20 times more snatchy. Add in having to figure out clutch and manual systems to the mix...

This year, I will have an iPod shuffle. They are cute. They are cute as.

So yeah. Last year was like the extreme mix of good and bad. Things I didn't even prepare for, didn't even cross my mind because well they just don't happen, right? Yeah, those things, they happened. I wasn't ready. It still hurts something chronic.

But last year, I also found true elation and happiness.

2006 was a rough ride.

Let's hope this year will be smoother.



1. Stop making new years resolutions.


May this year be prosperous and filled with happiness and stuff for everyone, all my friends etc.