Yeah, so like, there was a test today.
It sucked

too long

WOW my application is now "being considered" it means that Steve must have done the reference already? yay yay

I emailed them and tol'dem I wanna 2nd choice Grafton not I.H. cause. Free laundry sounds good. :D (coins suck)

Yeah I also just re-applied for SJS apparently they cannot find my old SJS number so whatever imma go confirum my thingy tomorrow and then try to see if i can get that job. it says transcribing infomrational documetaries, $30 every 1/2hr tape, and expected ~2hrs per tape so thats like 15 an hour and its work from home and I can do it anytime and RARRRR SOUNDS GOOD LETS TYPE LIKE A DEMON WITH MY LAPTOP WOO

It's crazy.

I'm excited.

I don't know if I can keep up this excitement all the way until next year.

I have an assignment due Sunday which I am going to burn out hardcore Saturday (tis too late now today to do anything on it. maybe i will stare at the ADTs for a while, the ones that Peter Griffins provided) and then Monday morning compose part of my passage to show Eve and then when I come home Monday arvo MUST COMPLETE another assignment for 210 and then if I do not manage to finish it, full tilt on Tuesday, total burnout, cause it's due Wednesday but I AM WORKING ON WEDNESDAY



You know

I am not a very nice person

But

I guess

That's who I am :( Would you rather I had said nothing at all?

HRmn.


HRM.

Do you remember in Memento where the main dude changes his memories by writing false shit and erasing stuff and all that crap?

You know...I can go backwards in my blog and make stuff up.

How do you know I haven't already?

Censorship censorship freedom vs equality vs oh man, the moral ambiguity it's insane

Hey Louise, nice to meet you.

There was bizarre medieval dancing.

I saw Lip.

Alex is one cool girl :) I probably should go find out where Kobe is.

Wow. I just searched typist at SJS and there's a couple of jobs up. I cannot think of anything damn easier than typing.

Oh man. I gotta go to SJS tomorrow.

Let's assume after tax, I get $12 an hour.

Let's say I find a job that's 8 hours a day (9 - 5), and I work five days a week, for the two months of the year-end holiday.

That only comes out to 12 * 8 * 5 * 8, which is $3840, only a third of the estimated cost.

If I work every day for three months, that's $8064 which sounds better...but...every day? And I'm not sure how long I have to whip up all this money.

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Knowing this, I still applied today anyway.

I must be going crazy.

I woke up today with a sore right hand, which is totally my own fault.

I have decided (in a rather large and mildly hasty (does that make sense?) decision) to apply for residence at O'Rorke Hall for next year.

Yeah, it's going to cost $10,000, just about.

That's all I have to my name...well actually, there is another $10,000 term deposit that matures on the 12th of October, but it's really my dad's money.

Money's made to be spent, right?

Hopefully I can get student allowance again next year, and subsidise part of that ten grand.

It means I'll need to get a reaaaaally large job in the holidays as well. Probably not at the Rec Centre cause I wouldn't be able to juggle two jobs. Maybe.

I've had enough of it, frankly.

I was going to print this off and stick it to my wall, but then I remembered that self censorship is apparently a virtue.

Aha! get it? How witty and ironic.

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Let's have some word definitions, because who knows, you might be retarded.

like¹ (lk) Pronunciation Key
v. liked, lik·ing, likes
v. tr.

1. To find pleasant or attractive; enjoy.
2. To want to have: would like some coffee.
3. To feel about; regard: How do you like her nerve!
4. Archaic. To be pleasing to.

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hate  /heɪt/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[heyt] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation verb, hat‧ed, hat‧ing, noun
–verb (used with object)

1.	to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest: to hate the enemy; to hate bigotry.

2.	to be unwilling; dislike: I hate to do it.

–verb (used without object)

3.	to feel intense dislike, or extreme aversion or hostility.

–noun

4.	intense dislike; extreme aversion or hostility.

5.	the object of extreme aversion or hostility.

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don't (dnt) Pronunciation Key

1. Contraction of do not.
2. Nonstandard. Contraction of does not.

n.

A statement of what should not be done: a list of the dos and don'ts.

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As you can see, do not + To find pleasant or attractive; enjoy. != to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest: to hate the enemy; to hate bigotry

Unfortunately, one cannot assume that they are communicating with someone with skills above that of a barnyard animal.

Y'know, why should I have to move out, actually? I'm pretty sure you're way your welcome date. Don't be so self-important; you're not even on the top of the list of reasons why I would want (not actually) move out.

All over the world, there are people I don't like. Conversely, all over the world, there are most definitely people who either do not or will not like me. That's okay for me... But apparently not to a Nazi, hey? OH SHIT, DOESNT LIKE ME OH DAMMIT OH NO OH NO; three words - TOUGH FUCKING TITTIES.

Just because I don't like someone doesn't automatically mean I'm going to cut their pillows into little shreds or spit in their eye, because frankly I'm not quite that bored yet. Unfortunately, someone is like, an affection Nazi, so, hmm. "Oh you don't like me, so I'm not going to blahblabhablhablahbablabahbalhexhaustivelist"

Do you think World Vision sponsors really like their sponsor kid in fucking Afghanistan or whatever? They don't wake up every day and think of poor Ahmed starving or whatever bullshit. No. No, they do not. They don't like the kid. But they're not about to go out there to kick him in the face and grind his hair through a windmill. Do you like that guy on the bus who dropped his books but you picked some of them up for him?

I'd hate to be a patient of a retarded doctor.

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I hope for the next ten years, every time you need to take a shit in a public toilet, you're always left with the dingiest, most downbeaten and hideously revolting cubicle to contend with. Oh, and also someone accidentally spills coffee on your head. How could I also forget the one where you're trying to cross the road, but you're too stupid so you get stuck in the middle and cars beep at you, and you get really stressed out and piss your pants and have to do a presentation in the next five minutes and you can't dry your pants in time so you buy some new pants but then you still smell like stale urine anyway and you get a D- on the basis that someone doing a presentation of hygiene should be subject to personal hygiene too.

Oh yeah, and um, you want that last beautiful mango and chicken sandwich, but the lady refuses to sell it to you, because she says you look like an ass.

And, uh, you get on the bus and try to produce a bus fare, but you're 10c short and the driver tells you vehemently to "GTFO".

Um, a bird will also shit on your glasses and it will splatter into your mouth and you will taste it for the rest of the week, which will ruin your birthday meal.

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Thanks Thomas for the ride home, saved me 30+ mins.

When you were here before

Couldn't look you in the eye

You're just like an angel

Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather

In a beautiful world

I wish I was special

You're so fucking special



But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here



I don't care if it hurts

I want to have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice when I'm not around

You're so fucking special

I wish I was special



But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell I'm doing here?

I don't belong here



She's running out again

She's running out

She runs runs runs



Whatever makes you happy

Whatever you want

You're so fucking special

I wish I was special



But I'm a creep

I'm a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don't belong here

I don't belong here

I find that increasingly every day, I come to this website only to do absolutely nothing meaningful or relevant.

I hate it all. Yes, just like Matty B. Hating on the bus. oh. thats legend. mysogenic woot i probably didnt spell it right but do i care no

"do i care no"

Apathy is the new Blakomen lol

well, not new. unfazed. or maybe im so fazed that it turned into a big ball of fazing and im fazing all over the floor unbeknownst to me. Particulate. Serendipity.

It's only week 2/6, and I already can't wait to leave.

Can't wait for University to be over.

Internet sucks as usual, dyingdyingdyingdying onoffonoff which is a sharp throbbing pain when you are trying to play FFXI. no sonny, it is not a sign from God. it is a sign that NZ broadband sucks.

I'm staring at a little warning at the bottom of the screen; "Could not connect to Blogger.com. Saving and publishing may fail. Test connection now."

ok

lets test biztnichs.

nope

not working

i wish i was a robot. then when i got sick of it all, i could just hit a switch


FUCK CONNECT ALREADY

urgh

i hate technology. someone run away into the woods with me. lets go wild with trees or something


the organic internet; the supermarket

Dennis is growing up, I'm growing backwards, like the weeds in your garden. Why wont they just piss off?

CONNECT SO I CAN CLICK THE BIG ORANGE BUTTON

.,.,im going to come back later.

I think Lan is on vacation. I need my moral voice back.

Dude, I saved you from drugs.

Ah, yeah, fair enough, but that's no excuse to leave....

If you're gonna be apathetic, so am I.

(hi marc)

...

Poignant.

But Lan, it's apparently a really easily dissolved organic compound or whatever, and is not inherently biologically addictive like nicotine!

That's not an excuse to break a drug-free streak.

That's not true. I must have had panadol sometime this year

Oh fuck. Shit, lets get wild. Bring in the LSD and ganja and coke and heroin, we'll fuck it all up in one big nebula of chemicals

Lan. You're not funny. And also, stop swearing.

Sorry.

And stop peeing on the digital carpet.

Well, if you'd let me out of the house...

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Someone graft sensory triggers please. So I can turn off my sense of smell when large Albanian women fresh out of aerobics 101 walk on by. I guess I already have it with sight; just take my glasses off. Not very safe when crossing streets.

It's been 13 minutes.

WORK ALREADY INTERNET


....


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are those baguettes.

off. switch.

9.24.

9.32 ON BUTTON

Lol I was given a photo of myself for screwing up the bit I practiced the most today.

What?! you ask.

lol yeah :o creepy

wonk uoy naht niotceffa erom deen I
In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
wonk uoy naht niotceffa erom deen I
My sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
Wonk uoy naht niotceffa erom deen I
What's left of me
What's left of me now


I watch you fast asleep,
All I fear means nothing


In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight
wonk uoy naht niotceffa erom deen I
My sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
wonk uoy naht niotceffa erom deen I
What's left of me
What's left of me

snwod dna spu ynam os
My heart's a battleground
snoitome owt deen I
wonk uoy naht niotceffa erom deen I
snoitome owt need I

You show me how to see,
That nothing is whole and nothing is broken,


In you and I there's a new land
Angels in flight
wonk uoy naht niotceffa erom deen I
My sanctuary, my sanctuary, yeah
Where fears and lies melt away
Music will tie
wonk uoy naht niotceffa erom deen I
What's left of me
What's left of me now
My fears, my lies
Melt away...
wonk uoy naht niotceffa erom deen I

Showtime. Time to play like a demon.

kittenwar.com

:D

my fave is pepper http://kittenwar.com/kittens/94246/

and the ugliest is http://kittenwar.com/kittens/63043/ (is it EVEN a kitten :\ )

I want to move into city next year. Maybe I find a job and save up or something.

Anyone interested in sharing a flat? I'm lazy and I have shit living habits, but it'd be cheaper if we split rent/expenses :P

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Why, you ask?

1) Convenience; saving 2hrs a day and not having to wake up so early.
2) I don't like Richard.
3) Experience?? maybe

;_: so. ex.pens.ive. blahblahblahflat blah blah flat Cb b ##b#


Knowing me though, I'll end up saying" oh meh" and just not do anything. Indifference ftw

Here are some sick horrible jokes.

Steve Irwin walked into a barb...

too soon?

How do you get four homosexuals on a barstool?
Turn it upside down.

What is the opposite of Christopher Reeve?
Christopher Walken.

What's black and sits at the top of the stairs?
Superman after a house fire.

Why did the black man cross the road?
Because I told him to.

What do you say when you see your TV floating around in the darkness?
Drop it nigger!


How do you get a bunch of niggers to stop raping a woman?
Throw a basketball at them.

How do you blindfold a Chinaman?
Dental Floss

• How many emos does it take to change a light bulb?
• None, they just sit in the dark and cry.

• How do you get an emo out of a tree?
• cut the rope

lol that one is tricky

• Two emos jumped off a cliff, which one lands first?
• Why the fuck would I care?

• Whats green and goes red at the touch of a button?

A frog in a blender

What goes Tick Cross Cross Cross Cross Cross Cross Cross tick tick Cross Cross Cross...
The Attendance Register at Columbine High


What's the difference between Muslims and Smarties?
Smarties don't blow up in the tube.

www.sickipedia.org

The world around you spins like a frenzied tornado.

Not you, however. Calm like a bomb.

You know that feeling? busybusybusybusybusybusybusy but not you; it's like in those music videos where everyone else moves at normal speed but you're walkin ultra slow.

What does this have to do with anything?

we don't know

That's too bad, then.

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I'm flattered, really, but anything past thirty is just downright creepy.

IPOD SHUFFLE II, I would like one. But. They are like $150 :(

thats like one week of student allowance >.>

should i get one?

HSOULD I?!

maybe.

maaayyybeee

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lol weird al

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man! Steve is leaving HRC too lol maybe it's like, my turn! wootpie

Violas are actually a really nice instrument, it's a pity that we can't quite capture that brooding dark totally emo tone @ Academy.

Academy, Academy...concert this sunday, I'm playing in the cello dbl. concerto :( :(

Even though I've played it before and all that junk, it's just...gah I never sound like I wanna sound like. Whether it's on the Cello or irl or speaking or whatever..

The gap between whaty ou think and what is, the psycho-distance

YAY

insane ramblings

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I forgot to ask important questions, but I'm glad I said no.

R-OH + NaNO₂ + H₂SO₄ ==> R-ONO + NaHSO₄ + H₂O

m'kayyyyy

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harp is also a very delicious instrument. in fact... im really annoyed that the APO or whatever didnt pick my piece to be played :( :( backin 7th form (wow that's 2 years ago)

man,

my old headphones lasted quite a while didn't they ;_; i remember when they were relatively new raymond had a pair that were similar. that must have been like 5th form

thats like. 5 years.

five years...

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IPOD NEXT GEN (or techincally 5.5) and mini/shuffle II.

i want a shuffle II, it sounds like it'll be great - i think i already have toooo much music to fit my ipod now (approaching max capacity) so i think the shuffle will be good, i'll still get the effect of "random music" if you know whati mean. like i like all my music so i dont wanna like cart around one cd, 1gb is ok for me

just dont wanna lose it, the shuffle + my curent earclippy headphones roxx

man

why wont they invent wireless headphones already :(

if i get a ipod shuffleII, hmm. hmmmmmmmoney down the drain :s and they're small and i might lose them etcetcetc

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Next week.

Wow. I never thought I'd have this problem in the non-standard direction.

Interesting...

;_; or downright embarrassing.

I guess I need to practice? o_O

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Annoying singaporean in my last tutorial.

you knwo those people who just talk a lot and parrot so it looks like they know what they're talkin about?

yeah

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Now listening to Tchaikovsky's Piano Concerto No. 2.

Broke out my new headphones today; I dunno it seems the bass response on these is nowhere near as good as my old blue-neons, but the retractable cord is v. cool. The earpiece holder thingy is also slightly strange and I need to get used to it.

Why do birds
Suddenly appear?
Everytime you are near
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Why do stars
Fall down from the sky?
Everytime you walk by
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together and decided
To create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moondust in your hair
Of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Helena.....

Anti-Helena....

Where's the anti-me?

Me! I'm the anti-you!

Psh, as if, Lan - you're way too righteous and holier-than-thou.

Well...maybe...

Yeah, and you know it!

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MirrorMask OST SO GOOD. like spanish+jazz fusion mmm mmmmmmm

Day 19: Adolescent chocobo.



Though the tips look kind of gray, I had a look at the model files for the young-black and young-blue chocobos, and can defnitely say mine is going to grow up to be a boring yellow one. lol

Raced it against a young-black that some NPCs were raising, totally caned it :D

That Vadim guy who was running/ran/did he get it? for AUSA presidency, though he has idealistic visions and Russian good looks, has one bad trait:

caught him smoking outside HSB OH BURN

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Is the secret to life balance?

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Crackers are apparently 1/4 fat. But they taste so good with yoghurt.

Imagine having a staring contest with a bus driver.

Now imagine the bus driver is rude and ugly as fuck.

Shivers down your spine yet? No? Check your pulse.

Got told off this morning for, of all things, not flagging the bus. There were three of us at the bus stop (surprisingly the other two were also people I knew, Kurt and Ena). If this dude was so irritated about nobody flagging him down, why didn't he just drive off?

So he could have the perverse pleasure of staring at me, giving me the strange initial impression that he had never seen a multi-ride bus pass before?

I proceeded to draw a highly stylized comic of him driving a bus, and the bus being destroyed by a rocket of some description. Yes, it was highly therapeautic

dude man wtf go back to low art

Maybe.

BUT SERIOUSLY METAL WOLF CHAOS LOL; THE US IS UNDER ATTACK

PLZ US PRESIDENT MICHEAL, PILOT A GIANT METAL ROBOT AND DEFEAT THE VICE PRESIDENT, RICHARD!!!

ITS TIME TO PARTY!!!!!!

First the Maori Queen, then the Tongan King?

England hold on to your princes!

Saw II. Pretty much like Saw I. Started a bit poo. But got better. Best scene is the needle pit. You'll have to watch to find out.

Mirrormask...STUNNING. I think sonny would like this. nice music some stunning visuals

main character did stunning j ob she did.

Ma ybe. He probalby already s een it mr so n ny.

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lol on www.imdb .com theres a whole bunch of idiots ar guing on the messageboard for Eric Knudsen (the "kid" from Saw II) say ing they're his past girlfriends. bahahah!

Day 17 for my chocobo: I can tell its eventual colour in two days.

Today it was sick though ;_; it looks soooo sadddddd its head is tilted to the side and it looks down ;_; ;_;

I'm sure this is like, a breach of ethics or whatever, but there is a student at University with the name Arshdeep. His upi is like, asinXXX. Lol.

Oh yeah I forgot to do this yesterday:

==DISCLAIMER==

It has come to my attention that people are assuming that because I complained about the AA Guy, I failed my restricted. The intention of that post was purely to antagonise the bastard, nothing more. I apologize if you have been mislead in any way, like a lot of you have ;_; I didn't do it deliberately ;_;

okbye

:D Thanks guys for the dinner + after!!

Great presents, man, Raymond, bring your mum to the computer so she can read this

THANKS!!! :D :D That must have taken ages to make :o

THANKS GUYS for the totally awesome hat lol I knew I was gonna get one :P an incentive to keep my hair short

THANKS GUYS for Cranium Zigity lol deceptively simple, but so much intrigue and strategy!!

Thai Family Restaurant or whatever was really good- high level of service, random gold cutlery (lol) and nice curry yum yum kk

thx guys everyone who came (helen sonny cheryl kat william dennis raymond) ^_^

holy crap we're all emo kids | a magnolia and an elixir | evisceration | where did we go right? | paralysis | five generals | kadaj | synthesiser | contemplate | hey, do you remember that time, years ago... | change | or lack thereof | unbearable lightness of being | importance | is it? | questions | half-answers | ambiguous | trandescending | piano | liberate | don't you think sometimes I have to act more normal to make up for your weirdness? | jody | the unbreakable ties of togetherness | barrier of the soul | dimensional death | spacing | blinks | stream of consciousness | cheese and crackers | metallic objects | twist and turn | monetary value

!! thanks for the present Kim! SO KYUTE

It has to be asked; what the hell is 21:00 PM?

Die, bad advertising...

Utada: sanctuary (win)

15 minutes.

I'mma set my phone on silent cause I know it's gonna wake me otherwise...

ARGH.

The AA Guy is such a dick.

Well, he probably just had a bad day.

My driving instructor dude was so much better. This dude was a right bastard ><

"driving too slow driving too slow you just indicated to go into mcdonalds you need to watch more driving too slow driving too slow"

Would you rather I speed, you bish :( From now on I'm going to have this weird mental disorder where I always add 10 to whatever number I read on road signs. Huh? What do you mean this is a 50 k road, I just saw 60.

Confusing things during the stupid test:

He had me pull over. I thought we were gonna do a 3pt. turn or some shit but no, instead he says "when it's safe, continue".

Um. Right.

Second time he had me pull over, and instead of saying "move in closer", he berated me and said "I TOLD U TO PULL OVER WHY ARE YOU IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD" and then he proceeded to combine like 50 skills by saying "reverse round this corner and into that red driveway". -_-

Fucking AA driving instructor urgh stupid dick gah

Lol also while we were driving his stupid mirror thing fell off lol I guess that's where the massive crack in it came from.

STUPID AA ARGH HATE YOU

But Henry, surely it is too early for Coke?

You are well mistaken, my friend! Any time is a good time for Coke.

Driving test tomorrow morning.

Muse rocks.

Birds flying high
You know how I feel
Sun in the sky
You know how I feel
Reeds drifting on by
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me..
And I'm feeling good

Fish in the sea
You know how I feel
River running free
You know how I feel
Blossom in the trees
You know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me...
And I'm feeling good

Dragonfly out in the sun
You know what I mean, don't you know
Butterflies all having fun
You know what I mean
Sleep in peace
When, ah, this day is done
And this old world
Is a new world
And a bold world
For me...

Stars when you shine
You know how I feel
Scent of the pine
You know how I feel
Oh, freedom is mine
And you know how I feel
It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me...

yeah, ooh
Oh, ooh...

Oooh, ooh..free, Freer than you...
Oooh, oooh
Feeling good

AAAH SO MUCH GREAT NEW MUSIC THX SONNY

gladiator = gold

that music video is funny lol

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Loosely inspired by the time-honored Model T Ford, PIRATES OF THE CAR: THE CURSE OF THE BLACK OIL is a seatbelting high-speed tale directed by Gore Verbinski. When Driver Jack Arrow (John Travolta), an eccentric rabbit, arrives at Port Royal, he barely avoids exploding inside his car. Soon enough, he's in the market for a new one, but not before he saves the life of Lizard Swam (King Arthur), the beautiful daughter of the governor (Hugh G. Pryce). This act of bravery sets into motion a sweeping adventure involving Elizabeth's childhood friend, mechanic Gear Turner (Matt Damon); a mysterious artichoke; and a legendary pirate car, the Black Oil. The Oil's mottled Michael Schumaker (Michael Schumaker) wants Lizard's artichoke, and when she's kidnapped by the ol' salty dog and his albino parrot, Arrow and young Gear must rescue her and find out the truth behind the car's curse.

Verbinski's PIRATES is a welcome throwback to Hollywood offerings of yesteryear, filled with lane-switching heroes, crusty headlights, treasure dashboards, swift cornering, and even wittier product placement. Screenwriters Terry Rossio and Ted Elliott have crafted one of the most clever action-movie scripts in many moons, and this gives the filmmakers and cast (especially Travolta) plenty of room to cut loose. Although Matt Damon may be a bit frightening for small children, there's lots of humor to temper the scary moments, making PIRATES OF THE CAR: THE CURSE OF THE BLACK OIL a nearly flawless fun film.

Chace left the Rec Centre :o

She now (apparently) works at a bank.

Turn-over rate at the rec centre, eh...

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Stephanie filled in today. What can I say? She is very nice. (dont start, Raymond) 7th form @ Howick College. Looking to do Sport and Recreation @ AUT next year. Today at After School care it was techincally two assistants lol just me and her. All the kids were like wth d00d wherz the leadr and then I smacked them in the face and they shut up.

Yes, it is true. I am toasting super-soft bread.

Oh yeha! 97.4% on my CS210 midterm. Woot.

MY CHOCOBO HATCHED

ITS SOOOO CUTEEEEE

Today was great weather. Spring is coming. It may even already be here. I used to enjoy winter, but...I don't know. Something changed, I guess. I like the summertimes now.

Brian (Linda's cousin) last night here tonight; he won't be coming back for a while cause he has high school or something along those lines. Linda's family + Paul and Amy etc + Andrew we went for a great dinner.

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I remember when I was younger, I had an irrational toilet fear. I think it was the fault of a vivid dream where there was a toilet with a furry blue seat covering that threatened to eat me up. I can also trace my vilification of touch back to Intermediate, to one spoken line.

GREAT ISN'T IT! :D

Memory; it's not a movie, or a sequence of snapshots - it's like a couple of hazy silhouettes which you read however you like.

And I read them this way!

Well, they're your memories so nobody can say you were wrong.

Unless they were there.

But they weren't.

Right.

Oh my gosh. Last day of uni. so .

boring.

Composition class was cancelled and we only had a workshop, with one piece from the acclaimed Old Annoying German Lady (Oagl.) Oagl was bizarre and enthusiastic, and putting her in the same room as Chris whatever is probably not the best of ideas; nevertheless I'm being biased and her piece was alright. Theatrics were kinda half-half in my opinion - not enough to be worth it, but the vocal part was pretty good (maybe it was just due to performer). I only knew what the piece was about because I was in her tutorial when she wrote it last semester. Was it last semester? I don't know. I'm glad I'm not in Oagl's tutorial this semester.

Ran into Dennis. He is recording! Woot! Apparently Raymond and his fly honey were mackin it out outside Munchy mart, but i wasn't able to find them. I went into munchy mart to buy some milk...but they only had two very dodgy looking bottles left, so I left too.


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I. Want. to. Go . Home.


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DID YOU KNOW

Paper documents, envelopes, and drawing pens

Standard metric paper sizes use the square root of two and related numbers (√√√2, √√2, √2, 2, or 2√2) as factors between neighbor dimensions (Lichtenberg series, ISO 216). The √2 factor also appears between the standard pen thicknesses for technical drawings (0.13, 0.18, 0.25, 0.35, 0.50, 0.70, 1.00, 1.40, and 2.00 mm). This way, the right pen size is available to continue a drawing that has been magnified to a different standard paper size.

In computer graphics, widths and heights of raster images are preferred to be multiples of 16, as many compression algorithms (JPEG, MPEG) divide images into square blocks of that size.

The French army engineer Col. Charles Renard proposed in the 1870s a set of preferred numbers for use with the metric system. His system was adopted in 1952 as international standard ISO 3. Renard's system of preferred numbers divides the interval from 1 to 10 into 5, 10, 20, or 40 steps. The factor between two consecutive numbers in a Renard series is constant (before rounding), namely the 5th, 10th, 20th, or 40th root of 10 (1.58, 1.26, 1.12, and 1.06, respectively), which leads to a geometric sequence. This way, the maximum relative error is minimized if an arbitrary number is replaced by the nearest Renard number multiplied by the appropriate power of 10.

The most basic R5 series consists of these five rounded numbers:

  R5: 1.00        1.60        2.50        4.00        6.30

Example: If our design constraints tell us that the two screws in our gadget can be spaced anywhere between 32 mm and 55 mm apart, we make it 40 mm, because 4 is in the R5 series of preferred numbers.

Example: If you want to produce a set of nails with lengths between roughly 15 and 300 mm, then the application of the R5 series would lead to a product repertoire of 16 mm, 25 mm, 40 mm, 63 mm, 100 mm, 160 mm, and 250 mm long nails.

Yes. People actually defined this as an ISO (number 3, if you want to know.)

There are also other ISOs, some of which are:

216 - Paper size
657- Hot-rolled steel sections
838- standard for punching filing holes into paper
2171 - Cereals and milled cereal products – Determination of total ash
3103 - Method of brewing tea for the purpose of sensory tests
3864 - Safety labels
5218 - Representation of human sexes

and my favourite

10664- Hexalobular internal driving feature for bolts and screws – Torx screw head

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Practice tonight. Maybe I'll tell them.

that's not the point

Yeah, you're right. Happy holidays, everyone!

Does God have internet access? Hmm. Does he read blogs? >.> Does he have an email address? Does his computer get lots of spyware, and do people try to sell him things like moisturizer/viagra?

In the pursuit of human knowledge, when we turn a question into an answer, even more questions explode from the reaction

Question ---> Answer -----> Questions x2 ---> answers x2 ---> Questions x4

etc

chain reaction

So. Where's the end? Or is it not the destination, but the journey?

Life is one giant up-down cycle.

Step outside of your comfort zone.

Went again today! It was better than last time, though I still didn't say much. Life...

It's brilliant, isn't it?

Well; I guess it is, though I haven't felt anything else, either - nobody's come back to tell me what death is like, so you never know, it could be better.

Fair enough.

m'gosh lol

Alright, I thought I had a test tonight, but I looked at the course page again and it says 21st September.

WOOT THAT MEANS I'M TOTALLY FINISHED ALL TESTS/ASSIGNMENTS FOR THIS HALF-SEMESTER!

lol i was totally psyched to study for the next couple of hours and stuff but I guess I'm not going to!

HAH

oh yeah

ooooh yeah

oh. oh yeah.

I woulda totally failed algorithmics and search algorithms anyway.

so now I just need to find a drummer (webmail is down can't ask Eve for Ben's email), and I guess practice sometime for my restricted test.

oh man

its moving fast ;_;

but it's stopped for you...

Since there's no test, there's no excuse not to go to number 2. :) maybe ill stay longer this time. but probably not...it's not like it's particularly enthralling or anything sitting there everyone else knows each other and blah

I do rather like the keyboards @ the info commons. They're really clicky, but have more give than my home keyboard (or well, the keyboard attached to the media computer)

Just finished CS210 midsemester test. Remember when I was yelling about how I hate C and the assignment?

I pretty much had to reproduce it in the space of one hour. NOT FUN. I'm hopin for an A, but a B+ or a B looks more likely :(

Here's to my slipping GPA.

Lol CS is such a nerdy faculty

The server for Stage 2 students is called Chaos (chaos.cs.auckland.ac.nz)
The server for Stage 4 students is called Hydra

lol

test in like 1 1/2 hr

:(

food? yes please

but hnmmmmmmmmmOK

Just came back from my driving lesson from a qualified AA instructor.

Man. That guy was really nice and really helpful :o so wise in the art of driving

He said I should be ok for the test: just need to watch-

that i'm looking for spaces, not cars, when i'm trying to turn/merge etc (so I don't lose opportunities)
slower at giveways to save eventual time by not having to full-brake (my excuse is that i wasnt used to the car but that's not good enough)
hugging corner while turning more, esp. left

He says "driving should be boring; if you put the instructor to sleep, you're doing a good job" and then proceeded to tell me how one driving test dude did actually fall asleep lol and wound up @ Bombay hills

William saved me from the unmarked giveway to the right one, but I didn't get the unmarked crossroads one; there's this one in dannemora that was apparently an unmarked but people kept screwing up so they made it controlled intersection.

Also he taught me a simple algorithm (tee hee, algorithm) for parallel parking; come along-side 1st car, fullbreak left, turn until 45degree, straighten if have to (though its only been like 20 mins and i already forget if this step is redundant or not), then fullbreak right until parallel then stop. Advantage of being in perfect position to get out once you need to leave spot (you came in that way so you know you can leave that way)

He had these little model car things that were really helpful lol

and you know when you're parked at the side of the road...and you look in your mirror (rear) and forward, and you look in the wing mirror to your right, do you know why you're looking? It's not to check your blindspot, cause odds that a car is stationary there in the middle of the road is like, zero. It's to look for driveways. And u-turning cars.

Totally worth the $55.

SLINGSHOT

YOU SUCK

WHY CANT YOU JUST STAY ONLINE AND STAY ONLINE LIKE BROADBAND SHOULD WTF IS UP WITH THIS CRAP

COME ON

I DONT EVEN CARE IF YOU'RE NOT FAST, JUST STAY ONLINE EVEN STUPID DIAL-UP WAS MORE STABLE

SLINGSHOT YOU GET 1/10

My lecture finished - I dashed out the door and pretty much sprinted full-tilt from MLT1 to the S5 bus stop on Symonds St. So. Tiring.

I'm really unfit lol

yeah whose fault is that huh

Lol

But yeah it was really weird, sprinting full tilt then going to 30mins of sedentary seating...when I had to walk from end bus-stop to my house it was like...my brain had disconnected from my legs or something. Walking in bizarre lines...and stuff.

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So I have an aunt? Or something? In Canada. (My mum would know the exact relation)

Anyway, she is totally awesome. Every year without fail, she sends me and my brothers birthday cards...of course, the messages are all written in Chinese so I could never understand them (needed my mum to translate) but it's just...such a fuzzy thought. I have talked to her once; she called Malaysia while we were over there before mid-semester break. It's really touching that I get a card every year.

There is one sitting right in front of me now, unopened.

I have been meaning to send her a letter back; I just...haven't.

My gosh. I'm a dick.

Drifting though the atmosphere
And up into space
Leave behind the moon he's sitting
In his special place

Some flutterbies they enter and they
Play around in my soul
And once again part of me
Fills up to be whole

Da da day
Just flying in my airplane.

Peaceful colours everywhere
Purples and deep blues
Feeling so at home here oh
As if up here i grew

It's so beautiful up here now,
Oh I think I might just stay
All alone and by myself
So free and far away

Da da day
I'm with my aeroplane

I can see heaven
Heaven down below
I look at heaven
And an angel who I know
I can see heaven
Heaven down below

Da da day
I'm with my aeroplane

Just happy to be me again.

Craccum is great this week. Nearly every cartoon had me laughing. Surviving Uni has also been on a winning streak. BEST PERRY BIBLE ONE THIS YEAR ROFL that one is great

Alright. Not much else to say; saw Sonny and Jenny on the bus home. blah blah volume space blah architecture blah dreamtime :P

Btw. The fat gangster kid, was born in 1976. Yes, that makes him like 30ish.

Just watched Waiting.

Sur.e, the characters are one dimensionaly. for the most pa.rt, and I can. see how a lot of it can be consider.e.d crude;

but my. gosh I foun.d it hilario.us :o

Great inter-character rel.ationships, just...I d.on't know why it was s.o funny! But it was.

A

Haircut today. Snisnors, snippy snippysnap. My hair's still of moderate length, but it's way thinner. I'm not really that happy with the back upon second thought (I think it's too long) but, whatever lol I don't care its just dead cells.

Also what else did I do today....woke up...played a bit of FFXI, william made lunch yum yay grilled sammies, went to cut hair

Already said it!

And then went to AA to book my driving test. They were all pretty full up until 22nd August. Which is funny. Cause that's two days away. No way am I taking the test BEFORE the driving lesson with an instructor I booked.

Yeah.

So I booked it on the 4th of September.

Yes. That is the day before my birthday (I wasn't sure if the wager would count if it was 5th Sept. the actual day, so)

Hopefully, I pass XD

William toox me out for a mocktest today. I failed like five times, mostly due to speeding (ouch) and not slow enough approaching give-way (double ouch) Reversing round corner is tricky.

Ambiguous unmarked give way issue

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But I guess I think I can pass. I hope I pass. It's like 88 bucks.

Dude thats such a lucky asian number! All right!

I really really really wanna pass lol

It'll be FREAKIN SWEET if I do. So I'd better. Yes.

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So I spent a lot of yesterday browsing through old posts, and I find that the quality of what I write has diminished greatly. I'm not as coherent or witty any more.

My paragraphs are not quite as long.

Have I said it all? Is there nothing left to say? Or maybe I'm just

lazy

Drifting...

You're not sure whether you're heading towards or away from something or someone...

an ideal...a concept...

The only thing you know is, you're drifting.

I am reminded of Ephram's Change soliloquy from Everwood or whatever. I think I shall dig it up, read it, and turn all introspective.

Oooh, big words. Introspective.

Oh crap. Here it comes again. Totally unwanted, here comes the feeling that I'm being eaten from the inside.

At least I don't need to punch stuff...

yet.

Everyone's busy. I'm busy too, dammit. WHAT THE HELL.

ARG-

No dude, stop.

Alright, alright. I'll run backwards and find all the hidden references in all of my posts this year. That will be fun.

Don't mess with their heads...

I'm not! You're the one doing it.

Lol aren't we a freakin picture of normalcy

Lol! Okay. I'm like listening to all the old stuff I made, and I came across "Five Potatoes"

LOL

I hope none of you ever hear it XD it's very rude

But it has a funny backstory to it. Perhaps I shall tell you, if you ask me.

Joe Hisaishi is totally awesome. He like recycles themes. Yes.

YES.
I have nothing interesting or pertinent to say, and yet I type anwyay.

OMG THAT GERMAN LADY IS SO DAMN ANNOYING ;_;

im not pickin on her because she's a mature student, but because she really IS goddamn annoying, she asks the dumbest questions and urgh rughrughruhguhg

She needs to ask annoying unimportant questions at times OTHER than lectures. I stress unimportant.

Hmm. Hate is a strong word. Highly dislike?


sssss ________
0-0 <>
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Urgh I hate payphones. It ate my 0.50c coin, and then it returned my 0.20cs.

I got really annoyed that the minimum amount was 70c and it wouldn't take the new 20s (but took the new 50 and never gave it back)

So I chucked in $2.

Made call. (called work about wednesday, probably swapping to do monday instead)

Cost 70c. Remaining credit, $1.30.

No change given.

Damn.

It would have probably been cheaper with my mobile (but URGH i hate mobiles, they don't have side tone anymore (this is where you can hear what you sound like on the other end through your speaker (so the speaker plays what your own microphone gets)) and its just urgh urgh

URGH

and I only have 0.50c left on my phone anyway

my god how did i get so poor.

need to check my bank balances. can i affordddddddd another top up so soooooonnnnn

i haven't exactly been light on the texting recently, anyway.

damn.

WHY IS A TEST ON WEDNESDAY

GRRR

WHY IS IT AT 6.30?!

GRRRRRR now I have to rerganize work and shit!

ARGH lol I can't believe I haven't noticed until now.

Days are getting longer - as I walked down K road this week, it was still light.

Booked a driving lesson with the AA guy. Brian, I think his name is. It is not that relevant.

We shall call him, Instructorguy.

Unfortunately his entire monday was booked. I don't have a clue why I didn't ask for Tuesday, his weekend was totally booked, so I took 7am Wednesday (yes, 7am. ouch.)

IS THAT GOING TO BE REFLECTIVE OF ROAD CONDITIONS FOR GOOD LEARNING

who knows

she's japaneasy

Lol. Utada Exodus lol.

What else, what else...driving lessons are cheaper in the south island than they are up here. $40 in Southland, $55 is what it'll set me back today. 'Course, i took it out of the mum-fund (cause my mum woulda paid for em lol she's the one who *really* wants me to get my license) so I guess it's not really setting me back.


I went today milestone! lol felt like a twenty-ninth wheel for a while but it was funny as lol i don't believe them XD


You know those posters, about that International Student fees thing?

You know the photo of those people?

Here's a secret: they're not international students XD

Phones are like dicks. When you get bored you play with them

HAHAH CRASS JOKE

Come on man, show us your style!

Okay. But seriously. Phones are like dicks. Everyone has one.

Hope for you is diminishing...

Sorry. But phones are like dicks. They give you cancer.

*sigh*

Maori Queen dead :(

And also, this shouldn't be funny but I think it is. 1.5 million people are evacuated as Typhoon Saomai makes landfall in Zhejiang. More than 200 people in eastern China are reported dead.

Saomai is like...food. Like. Lol.

I just picutre this giant saomai running into China.

haah

haha
hha..

ha.

It's too bad it actually means Morning Star in Vietnamese or whatever.

My headphones have died.

They've lasted me quite a while, too...I don't remember exactly when I got them but it must have been at least two years, now.

Yeah, quite a while ago...

Well I guess died isn't the right term, since they're still semi-functional. They've undergone the same process of slow destruction as William's old Sony ones (same model) - first, my left headphone (is that the singular term?) stopped working, and now the right one's gone kaput too. If I twist the wires randomly, sometimes the left one comes alive, sometimes they both do; at the moment I've only got the right one working.

Listening to Psappha by Xenakis. It's so crazy lol. Random percussive kinda thing.

This morning I finally called that 0800 number to get those random AA guys to get their regional guy to contact me for driver training (yay!)

I'm quasi-excited. I wonder if I've left it too late, or if I can actually get my license before my birthday ;_; But the lady on the 0800 number took my contact details and said the guy will call later tonight.

Oh man. That means I have to be at home, doesn't it. Oh...

Hmm.

Lucky I gave them my mobile.

Was gonna try go again tonight lol.

You should, you know.

Says you, Lan.


What else....

I exercised my AUSA right to vote today. It was actually quite funny, I only voted for one thing (craccum editor) - the rest of the people got no boxes (although I was tempted to put No Confidence in IAO).

Matty for the win - can't go wrong with the hater's guide. Sounds like a lot more fun than Marie-Taylor or wahtever. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate that she wants to make it more intellecual or whatever, but whenever I read craccum I always read those articles last, as a final resort so I'm just voting for what I enjoy.

I got given a chupa chup (cola flavoured) for voting.

Sweet.

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Don't you find computers amazing? Like...I just...I can't get my head around it. It's just wires and voltage but they do all sorts of things, just off the basic principle of true/false.

You know those massive thick cords and lines running around in the motherboard and stuff? There's a technical name for those. Buses.

Lol.

I woke up in a panic. I dreamt of a mistake I could have not accounted for in my C assignment.

I checked it. It was okay.

C. It haunts me. :(

SWEET. ONE ASSIGNMENT TO GO, and it's not due till next week!

THE WORST IS OVER

I WEATHERED THE STORM oh yeah C, take that

*->decrHandleUsage DIE C DIE HAHAHAH

IM SO EXCITED.

FINISHED. TWO MORE ASSIGNMENTS TO GO.

THE WORST IS OVER YAY

Okay, today I missed my bus again. Had to wait an extra 45 mins for the next one this time (ouch) - was too enthralled in my assignment WHICH WE GOT AN EXTENSION FOR AND THE LECTURER IS JUST SPOONFEEDING THE ANSWERS ON THE FORUMS NOW LOL

But I guess I met a nice bus driver, and a good one after the transfer.

Okay today, actually, I was outside the Archi-bus stop (upper? symonds, not the school of music one) and saw the 52 was due in 11mins, the 4:40 one. So I was like "hey lets walk down to the lowerbus stop"

Bad idea.

I watched the bus run past, and I looked at it with as bemused and dejected a face I could muster.

BUT this turned out to be like a good thing because:

I went into the music library, and my favourite librarian (easy on the eyes) was there >:)
Got on the same bus as Amy, Cheryl and strangely enough Richard
Katamari Damacy MUSIC IS TOTALLY WICKED up there with Guitaroo Man (yes!!!)

The last one has nothing to do with anything. But I don't care.

Where else are you going to find a song that uses animal noises for the melody?!

C SUCKS

Some things in life will never make sense.

How did Cheryl get from Half-moon bay to Priestley Drive faster than the bus? She got off at Half-Moon bay, and flagged the bus to pick up her wallet on priestley drive cause she left it on the bus.

Oh, so confusing.

Okay, this next C assignment is like...urgh (C, the programming language) 220's programming was so much easier, this one is like...urgh.

...urgh.

I don't even know where to start for the next bit. I guess at least I have 20% of my marks done.

Whoa. Just-in-time week, hey. Like, this week, pretty much every paper I'm doing this semester has its first assignment due.

As usual you procrastinated.

But! I actually managed to work hard enough at the last minute to finish everything off, so far. Now just have one and a half more to do for this week! And no all-nighters (closest was 2am, and that was on a Saturday, so..)

On a less sordid note, now in my possession is Brink of Time: Chrono Trigger arrange album by Yasunori Mitsuda, and also I ripped from Naxos (ooh bad illegal ><) Demetrios' Phantom Phantasy. Both are wickedly legend: Brink of Time puts a ethnic/world music and jazzy twist on songs from CT, and Phantom Phantasy is a jazzed up rendition of Phantom of the Opera songs! Both are totally wicked :D

><

Richard you truly are a compleat ass. [sic]

Urgh he like bitched to my dad, and actually managed to get my dad to cry over breakfast cereal. My god. It's not even fucking stellar cereal either, not Hubbards or anything, it's goddamn cocoa pops, Basics brand. I'm really scared, cause I share some genetic material with this dimwitted idiot. He told my dad that "he was worried about me eating a balanced diet" (you're great man, you should be a fucking political spinster) which was why he wanted me to mix it with weetbix.

Well:

1) It's really not that much healthier.
2) I know why you really want me to mix, so that it lasts longer or whatever so that you don't have to go buy some more or anything cause I'm such a fucking burden, yeah? If you're so fucking hardcore, just go live somewhere else -_-


You know what? I don't care if it lasts longer or not. You're not the one who's eating, I am, so why the fuck are you forcing decisions on me, giganto-prick? I can't believe you actually managed to complain to dad and get him to cry over this. You are a massive shit-cake.

I hate Richard.

Like seriously, wtf? How the hell can William be so much better in *every single way* than Richard? I wake up this morning and I go to grab some food to eat and he's like "oh no those cocoa pops are not for you" WELL FUCK YOU TOO THEN you bitch why dont you just hide them away in your room like you used to do with soft drinks? I'm gonna fuckin crush up all those cocoa pops into powder, you cunt.

They're just cocoa pops.

That's not the point! It's the fact that he's being such a shit about it. I don't care if you think I should mix them with weetbix; you're not the one who's going to eat it are you? Why are you being such a FUCKING WANKER OVER BREAKFAST CEREALS?

I wish you'd died instead.

PLAY! pleasecome to auckland where i can see plzplzplzplzplzplzplzplzplpzlzplzplzplzplzplzplzplz

Memory is the great betrayer.

If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all...

Don't ask, don't tell.

Iceland, the sole NATO member that does not have its own military force (the Icelandic Defense force being the US Miliatary contingent permanently stationed in Iceland), joined on the condition that they would not be expected to establish one.

The unbearable lightness of being.

Milestone failure.

Well, I got there. I found the place. And then a wave of panic, 180 turn, and I was on my way back home.

Fear. It's irrational. I like to think I'm rational. But I guess I'm not.

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Collector's Syndrome

I think I've been like, deliberately collecting milestones as of late. This is BAD. I should not be actively running around collecting for the sake of collecting. I think this is why I am hooked on FFXI. There's no shortage of things to collect. I'd probably never finish. I know that. Why don't I stop?

Cause I'm not rational.

(okay, so as usual I'm procrastinating again)

BUT! Man! Found the awesomest thing on Naxos whatever; a Jazz-rewrite of Phantom of the Opera!! It's called Phantom Phantasy or something...and it rocks lol

okay im still procrastinating

to go or not to go

hmm

what

what did you say

that wasn't relevant, you're like, melding thought-trains

Oh oops

Suppose you're on a game show, and you're given the choice of three doors: Behind one door is a car; behind the others, goats. You pick a door, say No. 1, and the host, who knows what's behind the doors, opens another door, say No. 3, which has a goat. He then says to you, "Do you want to pick door No. 2?" Is it to your advantage to switch your choice?

Man, it's like milestone after milestone, dominos...stacked...blocks.......

A sparrow at Domino-Day this (or was it last?) year knocked down like 200,000 dominos and the organisers of the event hired some guy to catch it.

The guy sucked, so he shot the sparrow.

I'm sure you can find some deep and meaningful insight to that!

Yes, I'm sure we could Lan, but how is that relevant?

I don't know. Are you relevant?

Maybe!

You know, the usual practice in the packaging of gum is to place prime numbers of palletes/strips/whatever. Like, 7.

Why is this? So that you can't share or distribute evenly with one pack alone.

So if someone had a pack of gum...and wanted to share evenly with his/her friends; unless there were 7 people there, he/she is stuffed.

The gum distribution is not going to be fair.

Now, if gum is love...

I am marking CS101.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN UNI IF YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT YOUR INITIALS ARE

I feel very used, right at this moment.

Which life to pick? Hmm.

Value is different, depending on who is looking.

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A few words:

Transpire proliferate obstruction intrusion platonic condescending parametric cumulative boisterous extradite melancholy courteous shimmering woeful idiomatic erstwhile laceration siphon secretion egrerian

Thank you.

I think in life there is only one true motivation; passion - and within it, there are two main types.

Firstly, there is what I think of as "staged passion"; people who fall under the sway of it tend to be vocal and proclaim such things like "WOW THAT JAMIE FOXX MOVIE IS COOL" after viewing the spectacular explosions, they then go and collect things for a while, and become miniature temporary experts on whatever they choose to chase in that moment.

Kind of like a sparkler - white hot in the middle with lots of arcs of light and hands, but rather juvenile and short lived.

Then, there is the silent passion. This is something which you do not even need to explain, because that's besides the point. These are more important. Because I say so. Fire of the soul or whatever.

What do you really want to do?

Ambitions. Dreams. These are the silent passions.

The strawberry milk, however, was not one.

---segue (here's a new word for you, sonny)

Eternal life. Is that the reward?

I don't know if it's because I'm weird or I'm biased-

probably both

but it doesn't seem like such a great thing. I think life is intoxicating its own right, but surely if you had it forever you would eventually get sick of it?

Don't get me wrong, I'm not being suicidal right at this moment - everyone's gonna die eventually so I might as well do with what I've got; but my point is, eternal life?

Isn't that like, zombies?

Maybe death isn't as bad as everyone thinks (or everyone seems to make me think). After all, nobody's hated it enough to cross to the other side.

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BLAH ASSIGNMENT

Not these, either. -Lan

You don't give answers, do you friend?
Just questions that don't ever end
Why God? Why today?
I'm all through here, on my way
There's nothing left here that I'll miss
Why send me now a night like this?
Who is the girl in this rusty bed?
Why am I back in a filthy room?
Why is her voice ringing in my head?
Why am I high on her cheap perfume?
Vietnam
Hey look I mean you no offense
But why does nothing here make sense?
Why God? Show your hand
Why can't one guy understand?
I've been with girls who knew much more
I never felt confused before
Why me? What's your plan?
I can't help her, no one can
I liked my mem'ries as they were
But now I'll leave rememb'ring her

NAXOS MUSIC LIBRARY IS TOTALLY AWESOME.

My gosh. I took up like three connections trying to figure out how to use it (turns out it does not like firefox) but lol now that it works MAN. WICKED.

These are Dream Theater lyrics. -Lan

This is so hard for me
To find the words to say
My thoughts are standing still

Captive inside of me
All emotions start to hide
And nothing's getting through

Watch me
Fading
I'm losing
All my instincts
Falling into darkness

Tear down these walls for me
Stop me from going under
You are the only one who knows
I'm holding back

It's not too late for me
To keep from sinking further
I'm trying to find my way out
Tear down these walls for me now

So much uncertainty
I don't like this feeling
I'm sinking like a stone

Each time I try to speak
There's a voice I'm hearing
And it changes everything

Watch me
Crawl from
The wreckage
Of my silence
Conversation
Failing

Tear down these walls for me
Stop me from going under
You are the only one who knows
I'm holding back

It's not too late for me
To keep from sinking further
I'm trying to find my way out
Tear down these walls

Every time you choose to turn away
Is it worth the price you pay
Is there someone who will wait for you
One more time
One more time

Watch me
Fading
I'm losing
All my instincts
Falling into darkness

Tear down these walls for me
Stop me from going under
You are the only one who knows
I'm holding back

It's not too late for me
To keep from sinking further
I'm trying to find my way out
Tear down these walls for me now

Tear down these walls for me
It's not too late for me
Tear down these walls for me

I'm about 2/3rds through Milan Kundera's Immortality. Some sections I find rather tedious but I'm being lured onwards by the possibility of even more literary gems that are embedded within. (in English: some bits suck but its worth reading to get the good ones)

If you're not afraid of real prepostorous philosophies and shit, read it.

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Dream Theater. Oh man. They are good. Seriously...so dynamic!

DATE MOVIE: Lol. What the heck? Not very cohesive, more like some mini-parodies sketched together. Some of it is really hilarious (some deliberate some probably not), and there were some things that just fell really flat (like the end of the LoTR bit).

C+ (the plus is for the great line: "What a coincidence. I like pie."

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End of Kill Bill 2: Lol. Everytime I think of Quentin Tarantino, I picture his face from the Special Features of Sin City and it gives me waves of revulsion. So that's like. Bias.

It's not fair to judge by appearance.

But I do it anyway, Lan. Let me finish.

Fine.

Anyway. EVEN WITH this horrendous face in my head, the end of Kill Bill 2 was okay. I'm pretty sure I laughed at really improper places, but it was just kinda funny how it was serious yet not so serious. It probably didn't help that Date Movie which I watched prior ripped it off. But. Hey.

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I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY ORGY FORCE 2 IS NOT A GOOD REASON

He didn't write this, either.

Yes, they were beautiful. They were also identical. This is what everyone would look like if Hitler had won the war, I thought. The Hitler Youth vibe was very strong: Short hair, smooth shaves, good tans, many blondes. Maybe there was more mincing than goose-stepping, but it’s all the same shit. Did we really defeat fascism just to recreate the damned thing at the outlet mall?

Actually, no. We probably defeated fascism because we didn’t like those hideous brown tunics that the Volksgrenadiers insisted on wearing. Anyone who dons an outfit like that deserves a swift bayonet to the kidneys.

It's funny how certain things remind you of other things.

Like plastic bags for me.

It's the rustling noise.

Okay, so I totally threw away $10.

So my replacement Credit Card came today (yay ffxi!!)

Took them a week.

But. Then Jack (richards friend) found my old card at our front door?!

So really...

I...

Gah.

Number Three.

lol what was that about

I don't have a clue.

Can be summed up by a big ?

BTW sonny there is a really good book i think you'd enjoy, its called um Immortality by...someone I dunno, some Czechslovjaskljkvjain or whatever, but yeah ive read part1 of it and i think you'd find it very itneretsting ok bye

Yes. I got home and cooked my own dinner.

Oven cooking skill rises 0.2 points.

And my sweeteggs meal is wicked now. I totally burnt the garlic though I have to figure out what's up with that. They seriously turned black the instant they hit the pan.

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awet.

Gwendoline Yeo is Xiao-Mei in Desperate Housewives. She is also the voice actor for Paine from FFX-2 and KH II.

Christopher Lee (Saruman) is a step-cousin of Ian Fleming.

The voice actor for Mickey Mouse is married to the voice actor for Minnie Mouse.

The peculiar origins of Kingdom Hearts came about when the producer, Shinji Hashimoto, met a Disney executive in an elevator. Square and the Japanese wing of Disney worked out of the same Tokyo office.

I AM SO GLAD THEY WORKED IN THE SAME OFFICE.

KINGDOM HEARTS ROCKS

its seriously

so good

arr

Beats/on par with Final Fantasy. My gosh. Music. Character. Story. EVERYTHING.

ARRRR!!!

Arrrrr credit card lost / cancel / number change / ffxi wants to recharge / number wrong / ffxi angry / ffxi cancel :(

This would be a good time for you to do work.

But I won't.

The producers soundtrack = gold :D

Another good day.

Meeting new people is not my strong point. I am glad he was a good conversationalist.

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Yes. I did purchase a ticket for the Macleans production. It starts at 7.30pm. I am sitting at home. It is now 7.43pm.

No, I am not going.

We understand it's not rational.

But I'm tired and frankly, I am not really in the mood to walk out of my room let alone to Macleans. I blame University and COMPSCI220

Even though it isn't fair or balanced or right to do so.

No, but so?

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Currently reading Brothers by Ted van Lieshout. Written in German. Translated to English. This is one of my favourite books. Combines humour and emotion in a nice little interlocking weave of words; coincidentally also has propaganda and new year as its major themes too.

If you can find it, I recommend it. Well, actually, I don't. Don't find it. And if you do, don't pick it up. You might just work out what my story is.