FINALLY bought the Nervous Wreck single!! $4.20 (not $5 cause like Warehouse had a 10% music sale yay!! good timing)

I have a supermassive pimple. I don't usally get them but when I do they are usually very obvious and commercial-style. so yeah lol its like...got a solid base and it feels yuck and painful like a callous but NOT so yeah i used a bit of my sisters cleanser stuff and like omg lol it worked kinda still there but it feels clenaernenrner CLEAN & CLEAR & UNDER KONTROL

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the service people said they couldn't get the noise out of the car maybe i should have mentioned it happens when turning but yeah i dunno lol i drove it around today and i got that sound and iwas like omg you guys dizent try hard?! it cost like 400 bucks

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i lost my card for the mumfund :L* have to get new one from ASBank

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So like, rented guitar hero II yeah? So like yeah how is it compared to guitar freaks? It's a MUCH more authentic guitar experience. guitar hero has like 5 buttons thats almost double guitar freaks' and also in guitar hero its more authentic lower notes dont bother higher notes and you can do hammer ons and pull offs YAY ok yeah its just that guitar freaks has more varied broad broad genres but like guitar hero is really about ROCK ok so yeah but it does have some nice like stuff like youkno blues/jazz kinda stuff but not enough!!! okbye

This is the 1331th post!

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SWEET lol

oikjay so today in the mail i got a statement of account thing right

for like

the tax year and stuff

like i owed them money

so obviously when i mailed them the personal tax summary crap it hasn't reached them yet

anyway WHATEVER i called them and stuff so like now its all sorted, the rebate has been applied and OH YEAH i get money back woo so i can ignore this Statement of Accounts that has caused me to go "whoamg shoxxxx!!!" but yeha lol itz kool cause like now i can not worry about owed money and actually get my entittymen back okay bye!!!

lol @ calling your band Dangerous Muse. Don't you idiots realise there's a band called Muse already? That's like calling yourself Dangerous Metallica. Duh...

So yeah i woke up at like 8 this morn

and like

drove to east tamaki to get the chariot serviccccc'd. its scary driving without know'n where you're go'n.

but loan car: you know the mitsubishi colt

the one in the soccer ads

that kicks that ball around

well yeha, they gave me that as the loan car and man lol i believe the ad, it can turn like a beast

it also looks like an ugly beast. very ugly lol but it drives smooth. too smooth. power steerin' iz like fo'shiz POWAH.

and driving BACK from manukau mitsubishi was a bit of a challenge , didnt know where i wuz goin and there was roadworks and also like, I couldn't figure out how to adjust the seat so its real dangerous like when you gots to stretchy your feety to reachy the xcelerata y'know? but i did eventually and its all good but it turns too well and arrrr touchy but its easy to drive you know so yeah that's my experience with the colt, im also not used to its mirrors and its weird size, my spatial sense is tingling but only for the chariot this paragraph is long and unending for something most people wont care about because honestly who is going to buy a colt? but i think its a little bit like the spacio? that dennis drives around, like, it looks hideous on the outside (no offense) but its a decent car so looks arent everything ok and stupid ads aren't everything either so like even though the ad is dumb and it has a dumb jingle and everything its still an alright car so dont go hurtin' itz feelings OK BYE

So like, I'm woken up at 6.30am by William and Kim leaving for a long weekend trip~

Actually, that's not quite true, it's probably cause I also woke up at 6.30 yesterday so my body thinkz I need to wake up again or some crap

stupid stupid stupid :P

Anyway, the microwave wasn't working and I was facing the prospect of a weekend of cooking for one without a microwave (omg no instant meals) but then I reset the multiboard and it was all good.

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Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

And hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Yeah
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

I just wanted to hold

Work today. Tired but moneyismoney.

Annoying indignant argumentative fat kid should be quiet and sit in corner.

:( @ random asian swearing from white people

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I'm like 2/3 through my motorcycle road code

lots of handy riding hints in it.

ive forgotten some stuff alreayd from my basic skills and handling though ><

like, do i have to catch the clutch every time i'm coming to a stop? is this the same for a manual car? SOMEONE HELP

Why put honey out in the sun when you can put it in your pantry?

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Had a great time tonight thx sonny, great food from everyone, yay @ mafia lol wooodogs

A brand new Suzuki GN250 (which I did the basic handling and skills on) costs $3,300.

now just need to study the road code...

Thanks Raymond.

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Okay, so I used to be a fan of Muse. But now that I've heard Absolution and Black Holes and Revelations, I'm a Supermassive fan of Muse. It's like the perfect blend of electronic, rock and progressive stuff. I can't...well, it's not so much as in it's indescribable but there is just so much that is good about it, i'd need days to finish.

Only workin Friday this week yay!

/Big Day out

big money spend

i saw

North Shore Pony Club
Minuit
Goodnight Nurse (omg watched them play Milkshake WOO)
My Chemical Romance (couldnt hear them that well cause of all the people, high frequencies die)
Lily Allen WINNER of the day, best act. She is funny and cute and omgomg we got her autograph also and like omg lol she played her sobngs with real people lol so like saxophones and shit it was amazing and she did all the good songs on her album and i was moved to tears by Littlest things lol omg lol never happenbefore
then a bit of dj justice

boiler room is aptly named it is friggin hot in there

then the killers, we were on the stands but not as good so we just didnt get view but joined crowd

then MUSE who are brilliant lol matt bellamy with his guitar and effects lol wtf

i didnt realise they were so dancey before

and like muse lol the moshing is like ow

toes toes toes

after that we skipped tool (no thx) and caught the end of The Streets, that was cool, then Crystal Method and then Shapeshifter

great day because of the music

organisers suck though

took me 1hr to get money from eftpos

i want to hit them

they are allowed to run out of money once but surely they would have worked it out for the second time

food and drink REALLY expsnsiveve in there, drink especially. like, 2x price gouging.

ok

bye


my calves are sore from jump;ing lol

so i was just using my laptop today

and like, i tried to close the screen

and it started falling apart lol

and i try to mash it back together like i usually do

but it wont

im amazed the monitor still works

i need a new laptop

or at least a new case for it

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big day out tomorrow

112 dollars

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laptops are expensive

urgh

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:( hate is a strong word but i really really really don't like you

A Perfect Circle
A Perfect Circle

Long ago
Just like the hearse you died to get in again
We are...
So far from you

Burning on, just like the match you strike to incinerate...
The lives
Of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take?
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stake
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are,
The very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take?
From every heart you break
And like a blade you stake
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Do we deserve, to leave the earth
we'll meet again
When both our hearts collide

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
All the play fighting
All the flirtatious disses
I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We’d spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ] 
Is this the end?

Drinkin’ tea in bed, watchin’ DVD’s
When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines
You’d take me out shopping
And all we’d buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could that tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you’d make that face you do
There’s no-one in the world who could replace you

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair
That thing’s are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?

Dawn of the Dead is a *great* movie lol

Seriously, like, best serious zombie movie (best non serious one would be shawn of the dead lol)

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went swimming @ beach for first time in ages. water tastes really bad but it was fun

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WHY HAVE I NOT BEEN PAID MY $100 bond back from Video EZY YET?!

Cluedo.

Ok. So I didn't win and you wuz all like "i was hopin you didnt win" well i couldnt have anyway cause nobody was gonna pull her out lol and <.< you is thinkin itz the spannar?!

:P

Lily Allen album: AESOME. AEEESOME.

Alright so this is a song about anyone, it could be anyone.
You're just doing your own thing and some one comes out the blue,
They're like,
"Alright"
He's saying,
"Yeah can I take your digits?"
And you're like, "no not in a million years, you're nasty
please leave me alone."

Cut to the pub on a lads night out,
Man at the bar cos it was his shout,
Clocks this bird and she looks ok,
Caught him looking and she walks his way,
"alright darlin, you gonna buy us a drink then?"
"err no, but I was thinking of buying one for your friend..."

She's got no taste hand on his waste, tries to pull away but her lips on his face,
"if you insist I'll have a white wine spritzer"
"sorry love, but you ain't a pretty picture."

Chorus
Can't knock em out, can't walk away,
Try desperately to think of the politest way to say,
Just get out my face, just leave me alone,
And no you cant have me number,
"why?"
Because I've lost my phone.

Oh yeah, actually yeah I'm pregnant, having a baby in like 6 months so no, and yeah, yeah...

"I recognise this guy..."
That's what she's thinking,
As he comes over her heart starts sinking,
She's like,
"oh here we go.."
It's a routine check that she already knows, she's thinking they're all the same.

"yeah you alright baby? You look alright still, yeah what's your name?"
She looks in her bag, takes out a fag, tries to get away from the guy on a blag, can't find a light,
"use mine"
"you see the thing is I really don't have the time."

Chorus

Go away now, let me go,
Are you stupid? Or just a little slow?
Go away now I've made myself clear,
Nah it's not gonna happen,
Not in a a million years,

Chorus x2

nah I've gotta go cos my house is on fire,
I've got herpes, err no I've got syphilis...

So today I've pretty much spent my whole day playing FFXI. (Made like....1 million + gil though, which is like maybe 14 US dollars in real life currency)

And intermittently thorughout the day I was getting phone calls which hung up the instant I picked up.

And then later tonight three in a row. Same number.

BUSTED.

With the magic of Caller ID, I call back and tell them to fuck off.

If you're bored anytime these holidays, you have my permission to prank call 09 8386213.

That'll learn you.

Man. It's amazing how tiring a week with kids are.

Urgh. Man. Urh.

Watched Black Knight by Martin Lawrence lol I hate him

This kid spat in my hair

This kid came dressed up as James bond it was SO COOL but i didnt get a photo lol

This kid came as an emo (lol @ David) with eyeshadow and vivid nails

My personal tax summary has arrived. APPARENTLY I OWE THEM TAX :(

but I can apply for child / <9800 rebate

lol

sweets

bye

lol @ texas chainsaw massacre

not that scary but maybe 30 years ago.

best scene is when the damsel in distress gets beaten up with a broom LOL

Due to the loss of a number of academic staff from the Department of
Computer Science in 2006 we are unable to offer all of the courses that are
listed in our 2007 handbook. COMPSCI 366 is one of the courses that we have
had to cancel. Due to this cancellation you have been dropped from COMPSCI
366.

DIE OMG GARH

A GAME THEORETIC APPROACH TO THE TOILET SEAT PROBLEM

By Richard Harter

The toilet seat problem has been the subject of much controversey. In this paper we consider a simplified model of the toilet seat problem. We shall show that for this model there is an inherent conflict of interest which can be resolved by a equity solution.

Consider a bathroom with one omnipurpose toilet (also known as a WC) which is used for two toilet operations which we shall designate as #1 and #2. The toilet has an attachment which we shall refer to as the seat (but see remark 1 below) which may be in either of two positions which we shall designate as up and down.

Toilet operations are performed by members of the human species (see remark 2 below) who fall into two categories, popularly designated as male and female. For convenience we shall use the name John to refer to the typical male and Marsha to refer to the typical female.

The performance of toilet operations by John and Marsha differ in a number of respects. The costs of these operations are peculiar to the respective sexes and are fixed except with respect to the position of the toilet seat. In particular:

Marsha performs toilet operations #1 and #2 with the seat in the down position. John performs toilet operation #1 with the seat in the up position and toilet operation #2 with the seat in the down position. If the seat is in the wrong position before performing the toilet operation the position must be changed at an average cost C. Optionally the position may be changed after performing the toilet operation, also at an average cost C. (Changing the position of the seat during the performance of a toilet operation is beyond the scope of this note and is definitely not recommended.)

Consider the scenario where John and Marsha each use a separate toilet. It should be obvious to the most casual observer that each minimizes the seat position transfer cost by not altering the seat position after performing a toilet operation.

For Marsha the seat position transfer cost is 0 since all operations are performed with the seat in the down position. For John the cost is greater than 0 since seat position transfers must be performed.

Let p be the probability that John will perform a #1 operation vs a #2 operation. Assume that John optimizes his seat position transfer cost (see remark 3 below.) Then it is easy to determine that John’s average cost of seat position transfer per toilet opeation is

B = 2p(1-p)C

where B is the bachelor cost of toilet seat position transfers per toilet operation.

Now let us consider the scenario where John and Marsha cohabit and both use the same toilet. In our analysis we shall assume that John and Marsha perform toilet operations with the same frequency (see remark 4 below) and that the order in which they perform them is random. They discover to their mutual displeasure that their cohabitation adversely alters the toilet seat position transfer cost function for each of them. What is more there is an inherent conflict of interest. Attempts to resolve the problem typically revolve around two strategies which we shall designate as J and M

Strategy J
Each person retains the default strategy that they used before cohabiting. This strategy is proposed by John with the argument “Why does it matter if the seat is up or down?”. As we see below this strategy benefits John.

Strategy M
Each person leaves the seat down. This strategy is proposed by Marsha with the argument “It ought to be down.” As we see below this strategy benefits Marsha.

Consequences of strategy J:
Under strategy J the toilet seat is is in the up position with probability p/2. The respective average cost of toilet seat transfer operations for John and Marsha are:

John: p(3/2-p)C
Marsha: pC/2

The incremental costs (difference between pre and post habitation costs) are:

John: ( p - 1/2)pC
Marsha: pC/2
Total: (p^2)C

John’s incremental cost would actually be negative if p were less than 1/2. This is not the case; p>1/2. Note that Marsha’s incremental cost is greater than John’s for p<1.>

Consequences of strategy M:
In strategy M the seat is always left down. When John performs operation #1 he lifts the seat before the operation and lowers it after the operation. The respective average cost of toilet seat transfer operations is:

John: 2pC
Marsha: 0

The incremental costs are:

John: 2(p^2)C
Marsha: 0
Total: 2(p^2)C

In these strategy Marsha bears no cost; all of the incremental costs are borne by John. John objects. Note also that the combined incremental cost of strategy M is greater than that of strategy J.

It is notable that John and Marsha each advocates a strategy that benefits them. This is predictable under game theory. However the conflict over strategies has a cost M in marital discord that is greater than the cumulative cost of toilet seat transfers. It behooves John and Marsha, therefore, to adopt a strategy that minimizes M.

This is not simple. A common reaction is to advance sundry arguments to justify adopting strategy M or J. All such arguments are suspect because they are self serving (and often accompanied with the “If you loved me” ploy.) A sound strategy is one that is equitable and is seen to be equitable. In this regard there are three candidate criteria:

(1) Minimize the joint total cost
(2) Equalize the respective total costs
(3) Equalize the respective incremental costs

The argument for (1) is that John and Marsha are now as one and it is the joint costs and benefits of the union that should be considered. This principle is not universally accepted. It is readily seen that (see remark 5) that the joint total cost is optimized by strategy J which has already been seen to be suspect.

Criterion (2) seems plausible. It requires, however, that Marsha put the seat in the up position after performing a toilet operation some percentage of the time. No instance of this behaviour has ever been observed in recorded history; ergo this criterion can be ruled out. (But see remark 6.)

Criterion (3) argues that the mututal increased cost of toilet seat operations should be shared equitably, i.e., neither party should bear a disproportionate share of the costs of cohabitation. A short calculation reveals that criterion (3) can be achieved if John leaves the seat up after performing toilet operation #1 with a frequency

f = (2p-1)/p

Since the value of p is seldom precisely measured and is variable in any event it suffices to use an approximate value of f. If we assume that p=2/3 then f=1/2. This suggests the following convenient rule of thumb:

In the morning John leaves the seat up after performing #1.
In the evening he puts it down.

This rule may not be precise but it is simple and approximately equitable; moreover the use of a definite rule sets expectations. The seat is put down in the evening to avoid the notorious “middle of the night surprise”.

I expect that this analysis should settle the toilet seat controversey for once and for all - if John and Marsha are mathematicians.

* * *

Remark 1: The toilet has an additional attachment called the toilet seat lid which can only be down if the toilet seat is down. When the lid is down the toilet is (or should be) non-functional for toilet operations. Some persons maintain the toilet seat lid in the down position when the toilet is not use. For these persons the analysis in this note is moot. Such persons pay a fixed cost in seat movement for all toilet operations.

Remark 2: Toilets are also used by domestic animals as a convenient source of drinking water unless the lid is down. (See remark 1)

Remark 3: Experimental evidence suggests that almost all bachelors optimize the seat transfer cost, the exception being those who put the seat up after performing a #2 operation.

Remark 4: Folklore has it that Marsha performs more toilet operations than John, hypothetically because of a smaller bladder. John, however, drinks more beer. We shall not discuss his prostate problem.

Remark 5: “Readily seen” in this context means “It looks obvious but I don’t know how to prove it; you figure it out.”

Remark 6: The toilet lid solution is to put the toilet lid down after all toilet operations. This solution imposes a cost of 2C on each party and is accordingly more expensive. It is, however, more esthetic. It also eliminates the “doggy drinking” problem.

Sorry Sonny, domain names cannot start or end with a "-".

Today, watched Brick (which like The Prestige started about a bit confusing but got much better) - not too bad nice twists yay!

And also rented a Wii. So fun lol, Wii play and Wii sports and Call of Duty 3. The controllers are so awesome :o

Now I know
That I can’t make you stay
But where’s your heart
But where’s your heart
But where’s your...

And I know
There’s nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights that cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A life that’s so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can’t speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiving
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I’m out here
On the other side
Of the jet black
Hotel mirror
And I’m so weak
Well is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay
I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay
I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights are
always blinding me
These bright lights are
always blinding me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak
Awake and unfraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay
I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

The Prestige is a brilliant movie. Seriously. Like honestly....it's a great script and everything GO WATCH

Alright, so I'm much too tired to type a really long year in review. But;

2007. Hi.

Last year I said:

"I don't think any of the years ever are really truly substantially different."

Last year proved me wrong in so many ways. 2006 has been the most different year out of all the ones I've had. I haven't made up my mind whether it's good or bad. Probably bad. A lot of crap happened in 2006, but if it had turned out any other way, I'm not sure it would have been for the better. But I still really miss her, every day.

Last year I said:

"Have you seen dead people? They are not particularly interesting."

Last year, I saw a dead person. It changes your life whether you're ready for it or not. Especially if you knew the person.

Last year, I said:

"Your boss is a bastard, or he just seems that way. Who knows?"

And then near the end of last year, boss changed. The person in charge is now a woman.

My brother is still a bartender. And, I still play FFXI. It's like a constant. But in the last couple of weeks, I've had real life. Real people. Reality. (sans internet)

Last year, I said:

"You start to drive, even though on the inside it seems like you are clashing with your lifelong ambition to ride a two-wheeled mechanical device. You learn how to turn. You know how the accelerator works now (it's pretty fickle)."

And then last year, I got my Basic Skills and Handling certificate. So I'm one step further along with my lifelong ambition. If I thought accelerators in cars were bad...throttles on bikes are about 20 times more snatchy. Add in having to figure out clutch and manual systems to the mix...

This year, I will have an iPod shuffle. They are cute. They are cute as.

So yeah. Last year was like the extreme mix of good and bad. Things I didn't even prepare for, didn't even cross my mind because well they just don't happen, right? Yeah, those things, they happened. I wasn't ready. It still hurts something chronic.

But last year, I also found true elation and happiness.

2006 was a rough ride.

Let's hope this year will be smoother.

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NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS

1. Stop making new years resolutions.

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May this year be prosperous and filled with happiness and stuff for everyone, all my friends etc.

OH YEAH!@!!!!! I passed my basic skills and handling thjingy

omg it was like

I started off really bad and was ultra worried I wasn't going to pass the test...

but man opmg it's amazing how much better you get in 2hrs.

I had to figure out like the whole clutch stuff like the bite point and stuff lol woo for manual

so much fun

bikes are heavier than you think

i am so excited

oh yeah

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The beach is a place that's always fascinated me. The gentle caress of the waves against the sand...I mean, I can't swim or anything but it's just such a nice place. At night, when lights reflect off the lapping waves, it really is a sight of such pristine beauty.

lol we now have like the bones of a Toxic cover

test tomorrow. i am excited.

i realllly hope i pass

Hunua Falls. Maraetai. Yay!

Great day

Hurray for friends.


[ I m a g e r i e .] says:
ok i'm assuming we're taking my car?
§- ð_ð -§ د-ּ rayscott.blogspot.com ʾاָاד³ - Rayho - Ξ - as I would, but not as I can - soulmates never die - says:
yup
[ I m a g e r i e .] says:
(wen did we decide this)
§- ð_ð -§ د-ּ rayscott.blogspot.com ʾاָاד³ - Rayho - Ξ - as I would, but not as I can - soulmates never die - says:
now



[[c=4]-=Blak=-[/c]] » blakomen.blogspot.com -:- www.ffof.tk says:
why are we going there again
neoslimd g - friedorange.blogspot.com says:
maraetai
neoslimd g - friedorange.blogspot.com says:
to get away from technology
neoslimd g - friedorange.blogspot.com says:
and like
[[c=4]-=Blak=-[/c]] » blakomen.blogspot.com -:- www.ffof.tk says:
but
[[c=4]-=Blak=-[/c]] » blakomen.blogspot.com -:- www.ffof.tk says:
aren't we getting there in a car
neoslimd g - friedorange.blogspot.com says:
yeah
[[c=4]-=Blak=-[/c]] » blakomen.blogspot.com -:- www.ffof.tk says:
lol
[[c=4]-=Blak=-[/c]] » blakomen.blogspot.com -:- www.ffof.tk says:
so like we won't get very far then

At this very moment, my iPod Shuffle is hurtling its way through the atmosphere on International Express shipping.

HAPPY FEET.

mygosh lol

its awesome

so happy

good music

soundtrack

must

obtain

ok

"Don't ask me to change. Because I can't." - Mumble

The Love Post

What is love?

Is it:

• a feeling?
• having a heart?
• an electrical impulse inside your head?
• making lunches for your children for 17 years?
• your child deciding to make you lunch after you made them lunch for 17 years?
• a man sacrificing his own life to save us all?
• something you say?
• something you do?
• showing someone you care?
• impossible?
• taking your own time to do something for someone other than yourself?
• being able to appreciate another's company?
• a look in your eyes?
• cooking dinner for your siblings without being asked to, and without complaining?
• donating to a charity?
• your favourite food?
• golden silence and a warm smile?
• driving two hours only to make a mistake and ruin it all?
• giving presents?
• winning the lottery?
• winning the life lottery?
• being able to trust in someone else unconditionally?
• the freedom of expression, of thoughts and ideas?
• looking incredibly beautiful?
• what they show you on TV and magazines?
• the perfect kiss?
• being there when you're needed the most?
• talking and letting others know how you feel?
• Turkish Delights?
• working broadband?
• something like friendship, only not?
• working together with others to achieve an ideal or a goal?
• an online game - the paradox of social interaction, six people at their gaming machines?
• attachment to a project?
• a place to return home to?
• the embrace that makes you melt and forget where you are?
• changing someone's desktop to coerce a smile?
• getting angry at a child because they didn't listen to you?
• worrying that they almost hurt themselves when that balancing beam toppled?
• doing your absolute best for someone?
• doing your absolute best for someone other than yourself?
• indescribable?
• Aladdin and Jasmine?
• something money can buy?
• the kinship between human beings and their animal companions?
• sex and intimate bodily contact?
• being together for 50 years?
• knowing someone else so well, you finish their sentences before they do?
• the creation and exploration of music?
• words, lyrics, poetry?
• what wars are really fought over?
• the emotion that will save us all?
• the emotion that will lead to our final hour?
• something a cruel man invented as a joke to puzzle millions?
• a connection so embarrassing you cannot tell your children?
• organized religion and its many tendrils?
• sunrise?
• sunset?
• a long walk on the beach?
• a long walk on the beach with someone else?
• romantic or platonic?
• everything that moves the world?
• those little birds in the cartoons that hover around the female characters?
• eye contact that doesn't feel weird?
• waking up hours before you have to just for someone else?
• being indoctrinated by the media to say and do creepy things before the time?
• roses?
• the connection between family members?
• letting something you treasure deeply go, for the sake of someone else?
• holding hands, and not just to cross the road?
  

I'm losing sleep over this. It has come to my attention that I don't know what love is. I'm not gonna rest until I find out.

William did a stellar job with Christmas Dinner.

entree

smoked chicken and mesclun salad with crispy noodles
honey and avocado baguette slices

mains

kumara and garlic mash
roast ham and gravy with roast vegetables
pan-grilled salmon with broccoli, carrot and avocado in pesto

dessert

christmas fruit tarts with cream
cheeseboard (camembert, edam, brandy and tropical fruit) with crackers


The new cutlery they bought made it look extra professissssionalllle~

so full lol

and tons of leftovers. we didn't really make a dent in the ham omg so yum

yum

YUM

The weather is great. Finally something like summer - the heat, the sunshine; I've got the fan going and it's just splendid.

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You know how I keep saying don't knock it until you try it? Well, those socks that Kat got me, I decided to wear them. Man - they are COMFORTABLE. I guess I will be wearing them after all :P

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More presents were dropped off by Christmas Helen and Uniguide Raymond; Helen got me girl guide raisins which she knew I liked and also the erasable highlighter roll-on tape stuff! AND A BIKERCHICK CUP! Such great presents, I can tell she actually thought about it before she went out and got the stuff, thanks so much :) :) :) And Raymond painted me a cool little miniature square thing, all right!

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So I came home after Christmas Lunch (which lasted quite long lol it's like 5.45 now), after an afternoon of drinking, Cranium and Playstation2, to check my phone and discover I had 6 unread messages and 1 phone call. Since I have 17c left on my phone, I can't text back but merry christmas to Thomas, Grant, Arron and Raymond cheers for the texts!

William is busy preparing dinner now what a pro!

So first things first;

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Christmas is about Christmas spirit, etc, religion, blah okay I understand all of that :) but now

Christmas presssssssiez

Rather bizarre dress socks which I may never wear because they remind me of my dad from Kat (but that's okay!) and some really random chocolate coated coffee crumble thing from Russia from Kat. Thanks!

Jared gave me a cool book of Visual Illusions :) Although I'd already read the entire thing before cause the rec centre has a copy but that's not the point I appreciate the thought and everything :D He also forgot to remove the price-tag lol but it is a very cool book. I like the illusion with St. Thomas? and the dragon.

Kim gave me a miniature pachinko machine from Stevens - unfortunately, they didn't realise the handle was broken and they don't have a receipt so they're gonna try replace it. It's really cool though and the ball bearing things look wicky.

Richard gave me Stickmen II ; cool book :)

Cheryl gave me a box of Butter Cookies!!! YAY! I love those cookies man they remind me of my childhood. they like melt in your mouth and its all woot

William presented me with an interesting book, Blue like Jazz (I think); the premise is it's a
book of non-religious thoughts on Christian spirituality. I like jazz.

Arron who is strange with his psychic powers :) :) bought me new drumsticks! WOOT like my cool black ones (I think they were travis barker signature can't remember) are about to kaput some day, I can tell, it's all fraying and stuff. So now I have new pair for when they break! They are also Zdilajadjadjajan (cant spell it) and they're coooooooool thanks so much :) :) Arron how did you know i neeeeeded new sticks ^^

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I'm sure I'm forgetting a present from someone or something, but that's what I woke up and opened under our Christmas tree this morning, I think.

My dad didn't make it in time.

I've just installed a whole lot of stuff onto my computer.

Firefox 2

Yes, 2. No, not 1.5; 2. What's new, you ask? Well, the fastest things that caught my eye were:

-Tabs now have close buttons on them
-Inbuilt spellchecker. The word spellchecker, for instance, has a dotted red line below it.

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MSN Live Messenger

What's better than 7.5? Well, it looks square. And, you can make phone calls. Kinda like Skype. Except, not.

MSN Live Messenger Plus

This lets you do tabbed messenger windows! omg

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I also changed my computer so that everything is a very pure and holy white. Yup. I would show you, but you don't care. It's christmas eve. Tomorrow everyone opens presents and it's like yay. Where is my dad? I don't know. Will he be here in time for Christmas? I doubt it.

I don't even remember what the last thing I said to him was, but I bet it wasn't particularly friendly or nice.

The new year is coming. Time moves on, you know, it doesn't...it doesn't stop for you or wait for you to catch your breath. Not that I do much. You know what I mean. No, maybe you don't.

White.

Lots and lots of white.

You're rambling.

I don't care. This is my blog, right? I may not have anything interesting or unique or special to say, but the beauty of the internet is that it gives me the illusion that I do have a voice. Meow!

It's a good way to waste my time while I wait for a party in FFXI anyway :P

If you are going to publish a phone number.

PLEASE publish it the right way ><

Example one:

0274 4562 24

This is WRONG.

please split up the NETWORK NUMBER from the OTHER NUMBER and split the 7 digit OTHER NUMBER 3 and 4.

027 445 6224

OK

THANKS

0274 is not a network.

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Handed in my tapes they r shutting down over christmas. only me and one other transcriber now. lol

pressurrreee

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Studylink was open but only the hungus Queen St. branch. Did that, but University closed today (my luck) and doesnt open back until the 3rd. So the last form in my Bonded Merit Scholarship will have to wait.

Okay so more things to do:

RETURN TAPES FRIDAY
busking today at 5pm
ENROL IN ALL MY PAPERS FOR NEXT YEAR

Why. WHY would Google even TRY to make email *fun*.

Please do not advertise like that, thanks. Email is email, just cause you use a Google Approach doesn't mean it's going to become fun.

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I made bad call Give Way sign oh noes angry van driver go along side median strip bad face beep horn I should feel bad but the power of music compells me.

The Plague is quite honestly the worst Horror movie I've seen in a while. I mean, at least after The Amityville Horror, I was really scared. The plague is like...it doesn't explain anything and it gets the music cues all wrong and....urgh ending was utter crap didn't get it

I guess maybe the ending might have been like totally meaningful or something if I understood the rest of the movie. Which i didnt cause i didnt really pay very much attention cause it was that uninteresting. Children of Men got my attention. This did not.

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Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes
are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

Just requested personal tax summary for like...all the years 2004 2005 2006

I won't get it until 17th Jan.

Hoppppeffully it works out to be a refund lol otherwise I have to like...pay them.

[nothx]

Finally found my class photo. It's so sad, in the last year they couldn't even be fucked getting us all together for a photo so it's just our ID photos on one big sheet thing.

Oh well.

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ORDER OF SHOT PRIORITY (you thought i was kidding, didn't you)
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I'm not going to explain how I've ordered it so that it's mysterious and people don't get offended. Like; are you last in the list because I don't want to kill you, or because I don't consider you a threat in the terms of the game?

Oooh.

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1. Terry Wu
2. Aleks Kaksonen
3. Ashley Robinson
4. Matt Cross
5. Ming Lam
6. Tim Steele
7. William Lin
8. Julia Kellet
9. Jennifer Yu
10. Kate Innes-Jones
11. Kirsten Sing
12. Emma Wilson
13. Jessica Lee
14. Anna Church
15. Helen Tsui
16. Charlotte Worsfold
17. Thomas Wood
18. Graeme Rich
19. Christopher Steele
20. Andrew Kinnersley
21. Raymond Scott
22. Sonny Lee

Just watched Battle Royale.

Holy. Crap.

It's so disturbing yet...romantic yet....I dont know

I was thinkin of how my class would pan out, but I realised that I've forgotten half the people already. Like Anne? Was she there in 7th form? And um...I swear weren't there some random Asian chicks in my class?

Tomorrow, I am going to stare at my class photo and decide in my head in what order to shoot if I ever had to.

Wow. That is seriously disturbing.

Today I nearly ran over a kid while driving, just outside the dairy on Wycherly.

What goes through a kid's head before he dashes across to the other side of the road on a ridiculously gaudy plastic tricycle in the path of an oncoming car? I guess I'll never know, but I'm glad I wasn't speeding or I wouldn't have been able to stop in time.

I've booked my basic handling and skills course for the day just before new years eve. Yes. 30th. Just in case you cared, which is probably a resounding no, but it means I can finally cash in on my brother's agreement woot

Don't know when my dad is coming.

http://gh.ffshrine.org?r=40125

Seriously. This place is uber o_O all...the...video game soundtracks and anime soundtracks etc I could ever friggin want. And there's manga. Oh boy.

“In Soviet Russia double negatives don't not say YOU!”

~ Russian Reversal on Double Negatives

A non-double unnegative doesn't occur when no two forms of non-negation aren't not used in no not-same unsentence. Not in no languages no non-double unnegative doesn't resolve not to a non-negative, while in no others it doesn't not resolve to no not-positive. These aren't non-strictly ungrammatical rulelessnesses and don't have no nothing to not do with mathematics. They aren't used not in no languages and not considered unerroneous in no others. Not sometimes, non-triple and non-quadruple unnegation cannot also not be unseen, which doesn't not lead to no alternative term not for the not same phenomenon not called unnegative non-concord. Not in literature, not denying no unnegation isn't known as the trope of litotes.

No infamous not linguist never didn't made no further unobservation that it wasn't ununknown for no non-double positive never to not resolve to no negative. No non-skeptical voice didn't came from no back of no non-lecture hall: "Yeah, right."

This joke isn't not due to no late Prof. Sidney Morgenbesser not of Columbia University. Not in Bulgarian the unexpression "Да-да" ("Yes-yes") isn't not used not to show undisagreement not with what hasn't not been unsaid. No Portuguese unexpression Pois sim! (so yes!) hasn't no unsimilar non-meaning. Also not non-Spanish sí, sí...

Busking today; saw Stables from NZIdol season 3/ZM, and Steph and Rhys from holiday programme and Tomo and Willie

how much did we get?

let's just say it was well worth the time.

.. / .- -- / ..- .-. ... / ..-. --- .-. . ...- . .-.
.. / -- .. --- --- / ..- / ---.. ---..

It reminded me of a story about a father was carrying his son on his shoulders one day. A wise guy asked the son, "Why are you riding your dad like a horse?"

The son smiled and sad, "Dad does it in the hope that some day I will become a dragon and glorify him."

- "Colours of the Mountain", Da Chen

more tings to do:::

personal tax summarrrryyyyyy get some gilz ok thx

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I thought of the best invention ever. A little receiver thing and a control thing. You stick the receiver thing onto something you keep losing, and you press a thing on the control thing to make the receiver thing beep like crazy so you can find it easier.

I would buy like 10 of those.

I've finished almost all my Christmas shopping.

I only have to buy for two more people; one very special, one not so special.

Hadn't been to the Plaza for quite a while; actually - this month, I've hit the big three (Sylvia Park, Botany, Pakuranga). I don't think any of the shops on High Street in Howick are my taste, though...

Went to work meeting. That was interesting, I arrived late so I was a little confused as to what was going on but lol it was okay; roleplay thingy, I got to pretend I was an over-competitive 8 year old who thinks everyone else is cheating.

Yeah. That was fun. I can see why some of the kids at afterschool care do it now lol

aaaahhh sucked to be the person who tried to calm me down :P

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
but she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change

And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it’s got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Ooh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now shes left
cleaning up the mess he made

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too
So mothers be good to your daughters, too.

This year in photos.

Iiro Rantala's Piano Concerto is *still* awesome.

JazzLab today; was gonna busk but we started late on the practice so decided to just do a practice today - looks like next one won't be till about Saturday.

Still tons of pressies to get!

drink up, baby down
mmm, are you in or are you out
leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you
excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy
these mishaps
you bubble wrap
when you've no idea what you're like

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

it gains the more it gives
and then it rises with the fall
so hand me that remote
can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow

such boundless pleasure
we've no time for later now
you can't await your own arrival
you've 20 seconds to comply

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown

More things to do:

collect more family guy episodes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!okay i think that';s enough exclamation marks
i got my results mailout today so i have to go in and finish my bonded merit scholarship stuff
gotta bank in all that random cash i got o_O

Troy:
We’re soarin’, flyin’
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach

Gabriella:
If we’re trying
So we’re breaking free

Troy:
You know the world can see us
In a way that’s different than who we are

Gabriella:
Creating space between us
‘Til we’re separate hearts

Both:
But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe

Chorus #1
Troy:
We’re breakin’ free
Gabriella:
We’re soarin’
Troy:
Flyin’
Both:
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
Troy:
If we’re trying
Both:
Yeah, we’re breaking free
Troy:
Oh, we’re breakin’ free
Gabriella:
Ohhhh
Troy:
Can you feel it building
Like a wave the ocean just can’t control
Gabriella:
Connected by a feeling
Ohhh, in our very souls
Both:
Rising ‘til it lifts us up
So every one can see

Chorus #2
Troy: We’re breakin’ free
Gabriella: We’re soarin’
Troy: Flyin’
Both:
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
Troy:
If we’re trying
Yeah we’re breaking free
Gabriella:
Ohhhh runnin’
Troy:
Climbin’
To get to that place
Both:
To be all that we can be
Troy:
Now’s the time
Both:
So we’re breaking free
Troy:
We’re breaking free
Gabriella:
Ohhh , yeah

Troy:
More than hope
More than faith
Gabriella:
This is true
This is fate
And together

Both:
We see it comin’
Troy:
More than you
More than me

Gabriella:
Not a want, but a need
Both:
Both of us breakin’ free

Chorus #3
Gabriella: Soarin’
Troy: Flyin’
Both:
There’s not a star in heaven
That we can’t reach
If we’re trying
Troy: Yeah we’re breaking free
Gabriella:
Breaking free
Were runnin’
Troy:
Ohhhh, climbin’
Both:
To get to the place
To be all that we can be
Now’s the time
Troy: Now’s the time
Gabriella: So we’re breaking free
Troy: Ohhh, we’re breaking free
Gabriella: Ohhhh

Both:
You know the world can see us
In a way that’s different than who we are

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THE DRUM TRACK FOR THIS SONG IS FAKE IT ANNOYS ME SO BAD URGH

Wow. I haven't played much FFXI in the last two days; internet instability is really annoying, and I cannot believe for once I have picked something over FFXI.

I think last time I picked FFXI over anything in real life, I really regretted it. Am I so glad I made the right decision this time.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LO82lY0zlE

LOL the youth in asia XD XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FWVGr80wmdE&mode=related&search=

LOL

"Do you think it is okay to have animals on TV?"

If you'd like to walk a while
We could waste the day
Follow me into the trees
I will lead the way

Bring some change up to the bridge
Bring some alcohol
There we'll make a final wish
Just before the fall

Promise I will be forever yours
Promise not to say another word
Nevermind whats done is done
Always was a lucky one

Watch the sunrise all alone
Sitting on the tracks
Hear the train come roaring in
Never coming back

Laying quiet in the grass
Everything is still
River stones and broken bones
Scattered on the hill

Promise I will be forever yours
Promise not to say another word
Nevermind whats done is done
Always was a lucky one

Promise I will be forever yours
Promise not to say another word
Here forever deep beneath the dirt
Nevermind whats done is done
Always was a lucky one

I remember when I used to watch neighbours for all the wrong reasons. Lol, k ids these day s. A l ways m ovies a nd r adio and s ometims its like oh okay. mewo?

Watched Children of Men just then. What a friggin powerful movie. Honestly...a lot of really brilliant one-shot sequences as well...just...wow. Great movie, a bit slow to start for me but once I got hooked, no letting go.

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In the car, I just can't wait...
To pick you up on our very first date
Is it cool if I hold your hand?
Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?
Do you like my stupid hair?
Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?
I'm just scared of what you think.
You make me nervous so I really can't eat

Lets go... don't wait... this nights almost over
Honest... lets make... this night last forever
Forever, and ever... lets make this last forever
Forever, and ever... lets make this last forever

When you smile, I melt inside
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please dont look at me with those eyes
Please dont hint that your capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss
A target that I'm probably gonna miss

Lets go... don't wait... this nights almost over
Honest... lets make... this night last forever
Forever, and ever... lets make this last forever
Forever,and ever... lets make this last forever

Lets go... don't wait... this nights almost over
Honest... lets make... this night last forever
Forever,and ever... lets make this last forever
Forever,and ever... lets make this last forever

(I'll never forget tonight)

Forever,and ever... lets make this last forever
Forever,and ever... lets make this last forever

(I'll never forget tonight)

Slyvia Park is big. Went there to start christmas shopping. Big failure lol most people still unaccounted for but at least i got some of it done...

saw Wii. looks cool. if Video Ezy ever gets any i wanna rent 2 play for a bit

Whoa. I am really surprised. In a good way.

Richard came home and:

1) Didn't say anything about downloads in the first sentence!
2) Redid the vacuuming - did a *really* good job, including ceiling and walls.
3) Spent some time with Kim.

I guess I was too harsh, it's not like I was any better myself.

Anyway; let the world know that Richard has moral fibre! Yay!

BDO tickets are $110.

Got my work roster for Jan. Only workin one week, on call 3 other days in week 3 and 4. I should be disappointed I don't have more days but:

1) there are tons of ppl
2) i didnt turn up to the first leaders meeting
3) week 2 has BDO! so i can go yay

so really its alright

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BDO 110
iPod 500 OR shuffle 150
if i decide to get vodem, 160 ++
bike stuff will be like 200

fjkjatlkjastsh.

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If I could drum like Mike Portnoy, I would honestly never do anything else. He is THAT GOOD. Paradigm Shift is just omg. lol arrrrrrrrr WHEN ARE THEY DOING MORE STUFF come to Nz plz :( oh man oh man arrrrrr gotta stop listening to it or i will get sick of it too soon lets listen to westlife or something

You have your own view on why I came back and my "reason" for vacuuming. You don't know me and I don't pretend to know you so don't assume that I did it to justify coming back. I promised William I'd do it and that's that.

Fine. But you didn't do a very good job. Being in a bad mood is not an excuse to be sub-par. Kids at the Rec Centre have vacuumed to a higher standard. And I think William said something about how you would re-do it? Still waiting. I don't know why I bother, I should just do it myself. Anyway, it's just vacuuming. I shouldn't have to tell you what the more important things are. No, they do not start with "d" and end with "ownloads".

To be honest, I don't know what you mean by "stealing company money" because you seem to have no qualms over using "company money" to pay for your bus passes. I don't use it to pay for my petrol so don't think you can stand the moral high ground on me.

Uh, in case you didn't get it, that was talking about bandwidth, not the mum fund. Mum used to pay for my bus passes. Just keeping the status quo, dunno what you were talking about. And you want to play moral high ground, I can display on the lovely internet for everyone to see what you have been downloading, but I am sure you wouldn't like that.

Don't try and rationalise why you seem to love irritating me. If you want help say so. William can ask me to do things nicely. Why can't you? You complain about me coming back and the first thing I say to you is "why did you stop my downloads" Well, why is it that I can have a good conversation with William and not you? Because he doesn't mess with anything. Try not touching my downloads and maybe the first thing I'd say to you would not be about it. Simple logic really. And I don't think you are in any position to judge whether or not I do enough help to justify anything.

You are assuming that it is always me who stops your downloads. Unfortunately, you can't prove it cause you're hardly home; it hasn't been just me who stops them. They screw us all over. Why don't you ask William? I don't want to involve him, but if you won't believe me, ask him;

we need the internet ---> your downloads stop --> we do whatever we do --> we turn it back on

I don't turn them off to irritate you, I turn them off so I can get on with things. You have no right to download 24/7 full speed when you are not present. You don't. Sorry, you can't justify it. It's household internet, not "internet for Richard to download unlimited BT". I think it would be prudent to point out that household internet should be for people involved in the household.

Also. Whether I stop your downloads is irrelevant to whether it's the first thing you decide say to me. Something that is not along the lines of "why did you touch my downloads again" would be a good start - you already know the answer and frankly I'm fucking sick and tired of fighting over the internet. It's not worth it.

Also, you seem to have the great fortune of forgetting to turn it on once you leave. I've already set it so that you shouldn't have to touch anything and yet you still do. Explain that one then.

Yeah, so that I shouldn't have to, but I wouldn't turn it off if it didn't help. To use your argument; Are you me? Are you psychic? Do you know what it is like before and after I turn them off? No. You don't know what it is like, because you're not me. The difference is very noticable. Ask any one of us.

You put all your stuff on the list, run away for a few days, come back and then get annoyed when it's not done. Well frankly this is a family home, not somewhere for you to stockpile downloads. Seriously, I check every night that your downloads are on. It's not my fault you come home before I turn them back on before bed, at the latest.

Not to mention my messages are not angry, "Next time you change something on my computer, please return it to the way it was when you finish. I suggest you just don't change anything because you probably will forget what goes where" is not angry at all, unless you make it that way. If I were to leave an angry message it would probably be more harsh. Or I could just not leave a message at all and do something angry instead.

Sure, because that would be exactly the mature side of you we've come to expect. Stuff like "oh i'm going to lock in my personal stuff to household shared stuff, and password protect my computer, so that you, personally, cannot do anything about my monopoly over the internet. oh yeah i will also run around to other people's computers and install stuff without permission, just to further spite you. i will ignore the fact that my downloads get turned back on at night, and focus on the totally unfair position that they should be on all the time even when i am not home".

Funny that, I recall you telling me to grow up...

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I remember when we first got this new and upgraded broadband, which you had said would improve stuff for everyone. I didn't really believe that anyone's position but yours would improve. As usual with your download obsession you get all excited over your bittorrent. And then we tried to surf the internet, and it didn't work. And then Jack told you to BT at night. What happened to that?

Oh. Oh burn.

I guess I was right about the only person benefitting would be the one who contributed the least to the household. Please do not think "oh, I vacuumed." Contributions to the household extend further than chores.

The problem is not you turning them back on or not... Rather you turning them off in the first place. Why disrupt your routine by having to constantly turn it back on all the time. Just leave it on. It would make life much easier for all of us.

How about: why disrupt our internet by having downloads constantly on all the time? We turn it off when we need the internet. It would make life much easier for all of us. Why should your downloads get highest priority all the time? Your downloads can go at any time of the day, but people aren't going to use the internet the entire 24 hour day. It's more disrupting to my routine to have to mash refresh to load something as basic as Webmail, instead of just turning your downloads off while we need the internet and then turning them back on for the night.

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I will have no more on this topic. It happens all the time. I'm fucking sick of fighting over what really should be a non-issue; we turn them off when we need to use the internet. And then we turn them back on. End of story. If you do not agree, please discuss with William. You don't seem to believe me. And if we forget to turn them back on, well, you can come home periodically and check. Your downloads can go on at night. People need to sleep. Ergo, while people are sleeping, you can download until your hard drive explodes.

Or you could move out. You might as well, then you can have all the downloads you want at wherever you choose to live; you can have a big download hut with your laptop and your desktop going 24/7 downloading all the crap you want. You don't even come home to sleep any more, anyway. Maybe take your clothes with you next time, you've already taken your shampoo.

But if you wanna be involved in this house, you have to play by the rules.

And don't bother replying to this either, because I'd just be repeating myself. Can't be bothered.

I don't like you, but it doesn't mean we cannot be civil. This home means a lot to me. I've had enough of you ruining the experience.

I can't believe I'm up until 2 in the morning with this load of horseshit.

jareds 21st party. cools.

so its like, official and stuff. now i apply for refund of my accomodation deposit...says can take up to a month to process. i guess that iPod will have to wait.

Liquid Tension Experiment 1 & 2...omg. just.

arrrrrrrrrrrrr so good

Alright, alright.

Pretend I have a position of responsibility. However, I don't do anything towards this job - I'm off doing other things all the time like partying and throwing stones at old ladies. On occasion, I come into the office and steal office stationery. And I also siphon company money on a daily basis to my personal account.

HEY THAT SOUNDS LIKE SOMEONE I KNOW

Seriously. How can you honestly believe yourself? I've already explained this like a gazillion times but here it is again:

IF you are not home, you should not get highest priority on the home internet. Simple as that. You are not at home to not make a mess; FINE. But you are not at home to help, why should you get to plonk your stupid downloads on the line 24/7? What was the last thing you did for this household? A half-arsed vacuum which even you knew you didn't do properly, in an attempt to justify your return home for something OTHER than your downloads.

Wow. Will you look at that? You're gone already, again.

Sure. I use a lot of the internet to play FFXI. Yeah, it's not the greatest of things to do. But I'm sure you don't want me to put online what you download. I think we know who would win that battle of moral right...

I don't turn it off to spite you, I turn it off because you do not help enough to justify 24/7 downloading. And everytime before I turn it back on, it's like you have this magic sensor that brings you back home for the sole purpose of checking your downloads, asking everyone in the house who turned off your downloads, leaving a few angry messages or two, and then leaving, before I return home from work/buying stuff/wake up/sleep routine (yes, i turn them back on SO OFTEN that I actually lump making sure that your downloads, ridiculous as they are, are on before i go to bed) to turn them back on.

I guess it's a catch 22. You're a prat whether you're gone or not. On the grand scale of brothers, you're pretty low. And you have to ask why people don't like you...

yay william helped me pretty much sort my timetable for next year woot just gotta pick between an undergrad project in Compsci or Computer graphicx

lol I got sent an email congratulating me on my perfornace in International Business papers.

i dont do any

lol sux to be them

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Maybe it's just one giant catch 22. He won't reach out, I won't do it either.

So we sit in indifference.

Thanks for not throwing stones. You know who you are.

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Man, those Wonderful Copenhagen Butter cookies are, well, wonderful! AAAAAH they melt in your mouth like M&Ms except they are more interesting and remind me of the good old days. Copenhagen exports their butter cookies everywhere, you cannot escape.

lol @ Eric Case

If you could have any superpower, would you have:

Superspeed?
Superstrength?
Invisibility?
Teleportation!?

It's so much harder to pick a dumb one. Like, the Shoveller. Who came up with that?! It's genius!

Should I have:

Blurry vision?
The ability to transfer lint from one location to another?
To speak in reverse? (not quite stupid enough)

or...

HMM.

I've worked it out.

It's not that I'm not going to Grafton;
I can't go to Grafton.

Why?

Well basically:

• I complained all the time about my dad not being at home, and then Richard not being at home. Well, it would just be me doing the same thing (albeit with slightly cleaner intentions, self improvement and all that other junk)

• $8000 dollars is not something I am willing to just throw around.

• My sister needs someone to tell her to do her homework. William is too busy working. Richard is, well, I don't have to tell you.

So although it was a good idea and it gets me excited just like Ewan McGregor, I cannot go without being a hypocrite, and ridiculously selfish.

Time to email!

the pedestrian crossings now have the cool timer things down queen street.

hey raymond it was 7 bucks and how many cents? can i have your bank account number so i can give you the moneyz thx

UnNews:North Korea pokes South Korea with a really big stick

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Washington DC: U.N. observers today accused the North Korean regime of continually poking at South Korea with a really big stick, causing annoyance and irritation in Seoul, the capital of the south. North Koreans have apparently spent the last few days lashing together thousands of bamboo poles with string. In recent days, when no one was looking, they apparently have been creeping up to the DMZ and poking at the south with their big stick while hiding behind some bushes.

They're sort of just doin' it fer shits an' giggles, I guess, said major col. Bucky Stratosphere of the U.S. peacekeeping force on the borderline. Sometimes we hear a kinda rustlin' and we see this big stick stretchin' all the way to the mountains. We just holler at 'em and they drag it back to their side. Some of the guys are all for goin' after 'em with the humbies, but I reckon' that might cause some kinda diplomatic inceedent, so we stick to hollerin for now

In Seoul, business communities have voiced their protest at being woken up by a prodding at 5am, or when they're on the phone or just sitting down to their dinner. It's really annoying, says one South Korean, I can't focus. I can't play Scrabble. Every time I try and concentrate on something, this big bamboo pole taps me on the shoulder. They should bomb the North back into the stone age for this.

The North Korean leader, Kimberly Ill Stump the Magnificent and Everlasting - Just Like Our Batteries - , says that North Koreans should be proud of their stick, as it is a heroic stick and it glimmers with hope in the last rays of the evening sun, and that South Koreans should only be poked in accordance with the Socialist Lifestyle. He encourages more poking between sessions at the chalk mines for a healthy mind and body.

LOOOOL OMFG lol that was funnier than the entire Adam Sandler movie.

Hey Helen. Here is how to make those cookies.

INGREDIENTS

• 2 cups butter (about 450g)
  
• 1 cup packed brown sugar
• 3 1/2 cups standard flour
• 1 tbsp baking powder
• Some honey. I used manuka.
  

DIRECTIONS

1. Preheat oven to 325 degrees F (165 degrees C).
2. Mix butter and brown sugar until you can't tell the difference.
   
3. Add 2-3 spoons of honey.
   
4. Add 3 to 3 3/4 cups flour. Mix well.
5. get your hands dirty and mush it all together to make dough. mix it all up. yes. yesssss.
6. make them into shapes. not too thick but not too thin so that they don't burn so easy.
   
7. Bake at 325 degrees F (165 degrees C) for about 20 minutes. or, just keep an eye on them until they look like they are cooked and smell like they are done, and are not a ridiculously dark burnt brown.
8. Take them out to cool. They will harden when they are colder.

YAY YOU NOW HAVE COOKIEZ

The icing is just 1 or 2 cup icing sugar + 50g butter mix well, and we added some orange essence (about 1/2 a cap) and then add some water, not too much but enough so that you get a nice thick mixture. once you spread it on teh cookies if it's a little bit gloopy you can put in the fridge to firm up the icingz k

Wow, Ephram looks so much older than I remember. Accidental watching of Everwood while transcription!

Today, me and my sister (along with the help of Sonny and Kat), made biscuits.

Cookies. Um, whatever.

They are Manuka Honey cookies with orange icing.

Unfortunately, about 2/3rds of them are burnt. Cause, I can't tell what golden brown is. And also, I was fooled by the squishyness of the cookies while testing them in the oven. It didn't say in the recipe that they would harden up when you leave them to cool!

So yeah. That. They taste okay though, if slightly burnt. The icing makes up for it. Yay.

No photos. You shall have to come over and consume them yourself!

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen